to me.
Time moved at a glacial pace and my anxiety level spiked with each passing second, knowing Derrick would be arriving any moment to do his best man duties. I could do this. I poured myself a drink and sipped it, waiting. Waiting to see his stupid face. A face I wanted to punch until it was black and blue for his betrayal. Shit . I never thought I would feel this way about Derrick. He had cut me so deep.
A knock came at the door. I begrudgingly opened it, thinking it was Derrick, but it was my sister, Kristie.
“Hey,” she said, walking past me. I saw your car in the parking lot, so I thought I’d come see you. It’s been so busy lately, we haven’t had a chance to hang out.”
I exhaled. “I know. I miss you,” I said, hugging my sister. She and I had always been so close. Normally, I would have told her what was happening in my life, but I didn’t want anyone to talk me out of this. Nor could I handle her feeling sorry for me.
“You didn’t seem like yourself last night. Is everything okay?”
I hated lying to my sister, but it was a necessary evil.
“Oh, yeah. Everything’s fine. I was just feeling like I was coming down with something. But I feel better now.” Lies. More lies. I can’t wait for this to finally be over. I shoved my hand in my pocket and stuck my thigh with the pin.
My sister looked at me skeptically, almost as if she were reading my mind. “You don’t have to go through with it you know. We’ll understand.”
“What?”
“The wedding. If you’re having any doubts, don’t get married. Marriage is really hard and takes a lot of work, especially if you are married to the wrong person.” Has Kristie felt Angelina was wrong for me?
My sister knew me too well. “I’m sure everything will turn out the way it’s supposed to,” I said, trying to be as vague as possible and sticking myself again with the pin in my pocket. I was so tempted to pour my heart out to her and tell her everything. I no sooner finished my sentence, when Stuart and Phillip came in, making it very clear to Kristie that we needed our male bonding time.
“Just remember what I said,” she echoed toward me as she left.
For a split second, I almost followed her out into the hall to talk. If Stuart and Phillip had waited any longer to come bursting in, I probably would have told her about Angelina and Derrick. I’d have to deal with the aftermath of not telling her, which brought up thoughts of all kinds of future awkward moments—explaining why I had chosen retribution over simply walking away.
I took a sip of my drink and listened to Stuart and Phillip talk about last night’s game. Derrick arrived and joined in on the conversation. None of them seemed to recognize I wasn’t participating very much, but I gave acknowledgement tokens to not seem disinterested. I was beginning to understand how women felt ignored by men who were more consumed with watching sports than noticing the obvious right in front of them. But this male shortcoming worked out in my favor.
Sipping my drink, it dawned on me that explaining the situation was going to drain every ounce out of me. Hitting me like a lightning bolt, I realized I could get out of town and go to Hawaii without Angelina. The trip was paid for and I sure as hell wasn’t letting her and Derrick go on my honeymoon. I might look like a loser going on my honeymoon without my bride, but, it might just be the break I actually need.
Luckily, the idle chatter continued until it was time. Time for us to assume our positions. I felt like I was about to bend over and grab my ankles. Walking to the front of the ballroom I thought I was going to hear someone call out “Dead man walking.” But instead, Derrick was patting me on the back. “I’m really excited for you, man. Angelina is a great woman.”
“Thanks,” was all I could muster as I stuck myself again. I wasn’t going to blow things by confronting Derrick now. I’d have my chance very