all spoke upwards, to the ceiling. Loud. Some perched on an elbow to see their surroundings. It didnât seem real that they could be out of the jungle.
âThink theyâll have any KJ billboards up back home?â somebody said.
âWhatâs a KJ billboard?â It was the teary kid.
âAinât you had your eyes open doggie?â Ledford said. He was drunk and delirious. âKill Japs, kill Japs, kill more Japs. Thereâs one plastered across every piece of plywood in the Solomons.â
The kid shivered. Jungle disease was in his blood. âIâm done with killin,â he said. âJaps or no Japs.â He looked down at his shaking fingertips. âI just want my fingernails and hair to start growing again,â he said. As dysentery came, such growing went. The jungle blood could rot you inside out.
âYeah,â Ledford said. âYouâre done with it all right doggie. You go on and turn soft. Let those nails and hair grow real long.â
A couple Marines laughed. Another one said, âDamned pansy Army dogs.â
Erm Bacigalupo said, âPut some panties on while youâre at it and bend over.â Everyone laughed hearty. There was no longer any room for soft. A code needed to be kept. Among men whoâd done what theyâd all done together, none could ever speak of going soft again. To do so would invite their nightmares to the waking world.
That night, Ledford made his way on crutches to Ermâs bunk. He apologized for knocking his teeth out. âIâm truly sorry for it,â he said. He held out his hand and they shook. Ledford pledged that once stateside, he would buy his friend some new teeth.
AUGUST 1945
I T WAS M ONDAY , the sixth. The grandstand at Washington Park Race Track was filled. Elbow to elbow they sat and waited, Southside Chicagoans and out-of-towners together. Theyâd come for the match race between Busher and Durazna, for which the purse was twenty-five grand.
Under the grandstand overhang, Ledford and Erm swilled from their respective flasks. They studied their short forms in silence. A fat lady in a flowered hat sat down in front of them and Erm made a farting sound. She turned, frowned, and fanned herself with a program. âExcuse you,â Erm said to her. He flashed his smile and winked at her. His teeth were white as ivory, set solid and paid in full. When the woman left to find a more suitable seat, Erm hollered, âKeep fannin honey, you donât know from hot.â He stood for no reason and wobbled a little on his feet. He sat back down. âDid you see that broad? She was wide as she was tall.â
They were drunk. Had been so for three straight days, nine hours of sleep in total.
âWhatâs the skinny on Duraznaâs trainer?â Ledford said.
Erm didnât answer. He was eyeballing the suits down front. âLook at these cocksuckers,â he said. âI paid good money for these seats. I gotta look at these silver-haired bastards all day?â
Ledford licked his pencil and drew a circle around the words Oklahoma bred .
âWhatâs the point in standin? Thereâs twelve minutes to post, for cryin out loud.â Ermâs ears were turning red. He got like this, and there was no point in trying to stop it. âLook,â he said. âSee how they all hold their binoculars with their pinkies out? How much you think they paid for those binoculars?â He stood up again. âHey, Carnegie. Hey.â The men down front knew not to turn around. They recognized that kind of voice.
âCarnegie came from dirt,â Ledford said. He didnât look up from his Racing Form .
âWhat?â Erm thought about sitting back down, but didnât. He ground peanut husks with the soles of his Florsheims.
âCarnegie came from poor folks. He was a philanthropist.â
âPhilanthra-who-in-the-what-now?â Erm cleared his throat and spat on the