saidââ
âWhatever Shelly said,â Dad interrupted, âDiane insists sheâs due something because of some ancient obligationââ
âWell, give it to her then!â I yelled, jumping up from the table. âGive it all to her, let her have everything Shelly left. Who cares?â
âI do,â Dad said promptly. âIâve already spoken to a lawyerââ
âOh, no!â I bawled. âAre you all going to court over Shellyâs stuff? I canât believe it! Itâs disgusting! I canât believe I belong to a family like that!â
âSweetheart,â Dad said wearily, â all families are like that. Deaths and funerals, they bring out the worst in people, even people who are normally pretty okay. Nobodyâs at their best when theyâre upset. Look at your mother; look how mad youâre getting right now, without even knowing the whole story.â He smiled at me, but sadly. âDeath hurts people a lot, it shakes them up and scares the bejaggers out of themââ
âYeah?â I gulped. âYouâd never know it from the stuff you see on TV, with people getting blown away every five minutes. Nobody even says oops.â Low blow: Dad was working on an episode of Shakers and Breakers, which Mom didnât like me to watch because of the violence on it. I felt my face get hot with shame over how I was acting, but I couldnât stop.
Dad, stubbly and scruffy in his old wool bathrobe, never flinched. He went right on in that reasonable tone that drove me crazyâI mean, why didnât he break down and bawl? âWhen people stop feeling so awful about the person theyâre missing, they calm down. If theyâre lucky and everybody tries hard, things get back to normal again.â
âFine,â I said. âWell, let me know when that happens, okay? If ever.â
âAmy, Amy,â he groaned, âlet up, will you? Look, you loved Shelly, I loved Shelly, but sheâs not the first person who ever died in this family, and we still are a family.â
âWell, maybe itâs a good thing weâre moving away,â I said. âIf all anybody can think about is fighting over Shellyâs things, maybe itâs time the family broke up!â
Dad said, âDid you walk in here this morning determined to make me wish Iâd stayed in California?â
No adequately blistering answer occurred to me. I stomped off into my room, got dressed, and left the apartment without saying a word more. As I walked past the living-room doorway, I heard Dad on the phoneâwith L.A. I could tell by the way he talked, faster than normally and laughing more.
I wanted to go someplace where if people fought, it was against a terrible evil like the Bone Men. Nobody there was running off to talk to lawyers about their dead relativeâs wills, either. I didnât think Kevin would have bothered stocking the Fayre Farre with lawyers.
And I hadnât felt Cousin Shellyâs absence so much there, maybe because in Kevinâs dream world she had never existed.
I slapped together a couple of sandwiches, pinned the rhinestone rose to the collar of my shirt, and headed for Central Park. Since Claudiaâs book was too big to lug around, first I went to get a park map of my own at the Dairy.
I was careful not to walk through any arches on the way there, which took some doing. The footpaths tend to lead you around a corner and into a tunnel with no warning, particularly in a rainy spring when everything is wildly overgrown so you canât even see the bridges until youâre under them.
It was a relief to find the Dairy where it belonged, within comfortable sight of the brick Chess and Checkers House and a striped arch called Playmates. I came back out of the Dairy and sat down on the huge black granite slab that slopes down from the chess house to study the map. I couldnât help wondering