either.â
âWhat will?â Fox countered. âIâm open to suggestions.â
Cybil held up a hand. âSince I opened this can of worms, let me try. Youâve got reservations about this, Layla. Why donât you tell us what they are?â
âI feel like Iâm losing pieces of myself, or who I thought I was. Adding this in, Iâm never going to be who I was again.â
âThat may be,â Gage said easily. âBut youâre probably not going to live past July anyway.â
âOf course.â On a half laugh, Layla picked up her glass of wine. âI should look on the bright side.â
âLetâs try this.â Cal shook his head at Gage. âThe odds are youâd have been hurt today if something hadnât clicked between you and Fox. And it clicked without either one of you purposely trying. What?â he asked as Quinn started to speak, then stopped herself.
âNo. Nothing.â Quinn exchanged a quick look with Cybil. âLetâs just say I think I understand where everyoneâs coming from, and everyone makes a point. So I want to say, Layla, that maybe you could consider looking at it another way. Not that youâre losing something with this, but you could be gaining something. Meanwhile, weâre still going through Ann Hawkinsâs journals, and the other books Calâs great-grandmother gave us. And Cybilâs working on finding where Ann might have gone the night Giles Dent faced down Lazarus Twisse at the Pagan Stone, where she stayed to have her sons, where she lived until she came back here when they were about two. Weâre still hopeful that if we find the place, we may find more of her journals. And Cybil also verified her branch of the family tree.â
âA younger branch than all of yours, so far as I can tell,â Cybil continued. âOne of my ancestors, a Nadia Sytarskyi, traveled here with her family, and with others in the mid-nineteenth century. She married Jonah Adams, a descendent of Hester Deale. I actually get two branches, as about fifty years later, one of my other ancestorsâKinski sideâ also came here, and hooked up with Nadia and Jonahâs grandchild. So, like Quinn and Layla, Iâm a descendent of Hester Deale, and the demon who raped her and got her with child.â
âMaking us all one big happy family,â Gage put in.
âMaking us something. It doesnât sit well with me,â Cybil added, speaking directly to Layla, âto know that part of what I have, part of what I am, comes down from something evil, something neither human or humane. In fact, it pisses me off. Enough that I intend to use everything I have, everything I am to kick its ass.â
âDoes it worry you that it may be able to use what you have and are?â
Cybil lifted her glass again, her dark eyes cool as she sipped. âIt can try.â
âIt worries me.â Layla scanned the table, the faces of the people sheâd come to care for. âIt worries me that I have something in me I canât fully understand or control. It worries me that at some point, at any point, it may control me.â She shook her head before Quinn could speak. âEven now I donât know if I chose to come here or if I was directed here. More disturbing to me is not being sure anymore if anything Iâve done has been a choice, or just some part of a master plan created by these forcesâthe dark and the light. Thatâs whatâs under it for me. Thatâs the sticking point.â
âNobodyâs chaining you to that chair,â Gage pointed out.
âEase off,â Fox told him, but Gage only shrugged.
âI donât think so. Sheâs got a problem, weâve all got a problem. So letâs deal with it. Why donât you just pack up and go back to New York? Get your job back sellingâwhat is itâoverpriced shoes to bored women with too much