paper dishes. I was too late on every thing. And now . . .â She and Eleanor both glanced down at the mess on the sidewalk, and the little lady said, âSo you see, I couldnât just take money, not money just from your hand, not for something that was left over.â
âMay I buy you something to replace this, then? Iâm in a terrible hurry, but if we could find some place thatâs openââ
The little old lady smiled wickedly. âIâve still got this , anyway,â she said, and she hugged one package tight. âYou may pay my taxi fare home,â she said. âThen no one else will be likely to knock me down.â
âGladly,â Eleanor said and turned to the taxi driver, who had been waiting, interested. âCan you take this lady home?â she asked.
âA couple of dollars will do it,â the little lady said, ânot including the tip for this gentleman, of course. Being as small as I am,â she explained daintily, âitâs quite a hazard, quite a hazard indeed, people knocking you down. Still, itâs a genuine pleasure to find one as willing as you to make up for it. Sometimes the people who knock you down never turn once to look.â With Eleanorâs help she climbed into the taxi with her packages, and Eleanor took two dollars and a fifty-cent piece from her pocketbook and handed them to the little lady, who clutched them tight in her tiny hand.
âAll right, sweetheart,â the taxi driver said, âwhere do we go?â
The little lady chuckled. âIâll tell you after we start,â she said, and then, to Eleanor, âGood luck to you, dearie. Watch out from now on how you go knocking people down.â
âGood-by,â Eleanor said, âand Iâm really very sorry.â
âThatâs fine, then,â the little lady said, waving at her as the taxi pulled away from the curb. âIâll be praying for you, dearie.â
Well, Eleanor thought, staring after the taxi, thereâs one person, anyway, who will be praying for me. One person anyway.
4
It was the first genuinely shining day of summer, a time of year which brought Eleanor always to aching memories of her early childhood, when it had seemed to be summer all the time; she could not remember a winter before her fatherâs death on a cold wet day. She had taken to wondering lately, during these swiftcounted years, what had been done with all those wasted summer days; how could she have spent them so wantonly? I am foolish, she told herself early every summer, I am very foolish; I am grown up now and know the values of things. Nothing is ever really wasted, she believed sensibly, even oneâs childhood, and then each year, one summer morning, the warm wind would come down the city street where she walked and she would be touched with the little cold thought: I have let more time go by. Yet this morning, driving the little car which she and her sister owned together, apprehensive lest they might still realize that she had come after all and just taken it away, going docilely along the street, following the lines of traffic, stopping when she was bidden and turning when she could, she smiled out at the sunlight slanting along the street and thought, I am going, I am going, I have finally taken a step.
Always before, when she had her sisterâs permission to drive the little car, she had gone cautiously, moving with extreme care to avoid even the slightest scratch or mar which might irritate her sister, but today, with her carton on the back seat and her suitcase on the floor, her gloves and pocketbook and light coat on the seat beside her, the car belonged entirely to her, a little contained world all her own; I am really going, she thought.
At the last traffic light in the city, before she turned to go onto the great highway out of town, she stopped, waiting, and slid Dr. Montagueâs letter out of her pocketbook. I will not