she danced or not?
She had revealed too much. Blame his handsomeness, the distraction of looks so blond and aristocratic they could be sculpted out of fine Roman marble. His tall frame, elegantly turned out in a dark blue coat and matching breeches, drew every feminine eye in the room. And the way her pulse sped up at the sight irritated Maggie beyond measure, as she should be the one woman to know better.
Why had he mentioned the afternoon of skating? She would rather not remember the Simon of her debut, the charming man who seemingly could accomplish anything. Heâd been so gentle that day, so solicitous, and had given her every bit of his attention. They had laughed often, and more than once heâd told her how much he admired her wit.
But too much had changed between them. Too much to ever go back, to be sure.
He opened his mouthâno doubt with some question or insight she had no desire to hearâso she blurted, âYou wished to speak with me?â
His jaw snapped shut. After a moment, he said, âNot here, I think. No, I will come to see you tomorrow.â
âWill you.â
âYes. The answers I require are best discussed in private.â
Oh, indeed? Little doubt what the line of questions would be, then. God knew sheâd heard them all hundreds of times over the last ten years.
A small knot of disappointment twisted in her chest. She hadnât expected it, though she should have. Simon was no different from the others. Hadnât she learned that lesson when heâd ignored her after Mr. Davenportânow Viscount Cranfordâspread those filthy lies? Sheâd loved Simon madly once, and heâd proven unworthy of such a powerful and generous emotion.
Yet hearing him say the words would open a wound sheâd worked hard to heal. She needed to find a way to dissuade him. Ignoring him hadnât done the trick. Neither had refusing him. There was another path to take.
âYou assume I will be home to accept callers. Perhaps I have plansâor perhaps I will be occupied with another guest. The evening is far from over, after all.â
The expression on his face changed, hardened, as sheâd hoped it would. Satisfaction was short-lived, however, because he returned, âIf that is so, perhaps he could see his way to allowing you a few minutes for a friend.â
She almost laughed. â Friend? Simon, I have nothing to offer or say to you. The idea of a friendship between us is ludicrous for so many reasons, the least of which is your lauded political career. What will people think, the powerful Earl of Winchester with the Half-Irishââ
âDo not say it,â he snapped, surprising her.
âDo not say what? Harlot? â A dry, brittle laugh escaped. âCome, you know what everyone calls me. Thereâs no getting around it, Iâm afraid. And one thing Iâve learned over the years is that it is better to embrace your destiny rather than try and alter it. Now if youâll excuse me, I must change.â
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Maggie threw open her chamber door with more force than she intended. Her sister, Rebecca, glanced up from where she sat on Maggieâs bed, reading. âMy heavens. What is the matter?â
Maggie strode to the bell pull and tugged. Sheâd need Tildaâs help with a new gown. âI stepped in the pool and dampened the hem of my dress.â
âDid you? Oh, I wish I could have seen that.â
Maggie smiled at her sister. This was an old battleâone Becca would never, ever win. âYou know my parties are not for respectable Society ladies. Coming below would ruin your reputation, which I might add already suffers from our being related. Itâs bad enough you insist on sending your husband.â
Becca lifted her chin. âSomeone needs to watch out for you. Marcus will never let anything happen.â
âWhat, precisely, worries you? That Iâll run low on champagne and
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