and options and had no choice but to agree to my offer to stay at Dharaâs and my apartment for a couple weeks or a couple months or for however long it took us to make a permanent plan.
I left the Prius with the attendant and took the elevator up to thirty-seven. When I arrived at our apartment, Dhara was already getting ready for dinner. She stood at the bedroom mirror in a creamy silk slip, blow-drying her hair.
âHappy anniversary,â I said. âYouâre looking awfully nice.â
âIâm in my underwear.â
âSo you areâhave I told you how much I missed you?â
I went to embrace her, but she stuck out her hair dryer like Barbarellaâs space gun. âI missed you, too, but maybe later. You look like you hopped off a garbage truck.â
I had dust streaks on my waffle shirt, a weekâs growth of beard, and still smelled of golden retriever. âFair enough.â I gave her a quick kiss and ducked into the shower.
By the time Iâd washed away the grime of moving my fatherâs life into boxes and out the door of the only house heâd ever own, Dhara had already shimmied into the black Diane von Furstenberg dress I had bought her for Christmas. Or, rather, the four-hundred-dollar dress she saw in a boutique window on our way to lunch in Wicker Park and that I bought, wrapped, and presented to her with her family as witnesses. I knew that at the end of the month her checking account would pay the credit-card bill, but Dhara had always wanted me to give the appearance of breadwinner. So I picked up the tab with my card, though it was all for showâshe made the higher salary, had worked steadily since seventh grade, had a business degree, and had invested well, even protecting most of her assets through the current crisis, unlike me, with my debts and my personal albatross otherwise known as Professor Roland Clary.
âHow did it go?â Dhara asked. âWhat did you decide to do with him?â
I continued to buy time. âIâm still making calls. But at least I got him to move most of his junk into storage.â
âWho have you called?â Dhara wrapped the hair-dryer cord around the handle and put it away.
âNursing homes. Those kinds of places. But theyâre criminally expensive.â
âAre your brothers pitching in?â
âNot much.â Iâd phoned them the other day. Michael offered a hundred bucks a month. Eric claimed he couldnât afford half that, even if he wanted to. Both agreed that whatever they contributed, our father didnât deserve it.
âItâs not fair how they stick you with everything,â Dhara said with irritation.
I wasnât quick to defend my brothers. They lived in New York and Boston, so I saw them once a year at most, and we rarely made more than a nominal effort. Our father was our only link, one we too often forgot. But I couldnât forget him at the moment, not when he was moving into this very apartment a couple days, a week, too soon from now.
âWhy is this your responsibility? Youâre the youngest. Youâre supposed to get a free pass.â Dhara swept her hair into a ponytail, then pinned it up in a bun.
âItâs the same old story. They live far away and have too many kids.â Michael had three and Eric four. They both married only children and got to breeding in their twenties, to compensate for lonely childhoods. Their kids slept two to a room; space was so tight at Ericâs apartment that he turned a closet into a bedroom for his youngest boy, who slept on a tiny mattress and decorated the walls with decals of spaceships and planets. My brothers were priced out of the East Coast, on a public defenderâs and assistant principalâs salary, and neither had any room at the inn. So it was all on me, and Dhara knew this, but that didnât stop her from asking Why?
âSo I heard there might be a vacancy at corporate