bothered.”
Kade jumped to the ground and turned gracefully, clearly getting used to this. He offered his hand to her. She looked at him, trying to see through the front he was putting up, but he was too good. She shook her head, accepting that she was not going to solve this mystery and reached out to accept his hand as she started to slide down toward him. She missed his hand and fell into his arms. Kade was unprepared as the weight of her pressed him backwards. The long ride had taken more of a toll on him that he realized as he scrambled to regain his balance, but his boot struck a root from a nearby tree and they started to fall. He wrapped his arms around her to protect her from the impact.
As soon as the pain from the jarring landing subsided, Kade opened his eyes to see Darcienna’s face just inches from his. He became very aware of her body pressed against his and started to feel sensations grow to a dangerous level that would soon shut down the logical part of his brain. He felt her breath against his face and inhaled, enjoying her intoxicating scent. He felt himself start to melt as his eyes wandered over her lips, feeling the urge to taste their sweetness. His hands started to move down her back as if they had a mind of their own. He was on the verge of losing all sense of right or wrong and just letting go. Darcienna slowly slid up as she moved closer to his lips, sliding her hips along his. His breathing was far from steady, and just when he was on the verge of letting go completely, the thought of her with the other guy caused jealousy to flare in him.
Is this thing with me temporary until she can go back to this other guy? He asked himself.
“I can’t do this,” Kade said as he lifted her off and rolled out from under her.
“What did I do wrong ?” Darcienna asked, completely at a loss. “Kade…,” she started to say, but he waved her to silence.
What he wanted to say was that he wanted her more than he wanted life itself. He wanted to pull her into his arms, look deep in her eyes and then lose himself in her kiss. He wanted this so much that his heart ached. But, if she found the one she was looking for, the pain he would feel would crush him beyond recovery, and he knew this more certainly than anything. He knew what it was to feel the loss of someone that meant everything to him. He was not going to watch her go into the arms of another. He could not think of a more hurtful thing to do to himself than to believe that he could have her only to lose her at a later time. She was more than just a piece of flesh. She was Darcienna.
She sat on the ground, confused, studying Kade, trying to read his thoughts as the expression on his face changed rapidly. She was sure she could see love in his eyes when he looked at her. But in the next instant, it would change to such sadness that she could feel tears threaten to well up in her own eyes. Then, it felt as if a wall a mile thick was growing between them. The wall grew and grew as she watched. Her heart felt as if someone had reached in and was squeezing little by little.
Do you not want me? she agonized as she looked at him. Why would you not let me in? What is it that you are not telling me? What would it take to get you to open up to me and be mine? she asked as she stared at the ground. She could see as clearly as day that he wanted her. He wanted her in many ways and she wanted him also, so why fight it?
Darcienna stood and dusted off her clothes. She turned away to hide her face and took several steps without looking back. Well, she intended not to look back, but after a dozen steps or so, she glanced over her shoulder. She saw him watching her, and for just a moment, she saw him looking through a crack in that wall and then it was gone. She stopped and stared down at nothing, trying