against the wall. It was imperative that I got out of this place quick before I became a product of my environment. Moments later, we finally we made it to the psychiatrist’s office.
“Thanks for bringing Lisa down, Betty,” Dr. Ju said. Once Betty nodded her head and walked away, the doctor turned to me. “Well, hello Lisa, how are you feeling today?”
She was a thin, very fashionable Asian woman who was in her early thirties. During every session, Dr. Ju irritated me because she always made me feel like I was less than her when I’m sure my closet would make her green with envy.
“How do you think I feel? I’m in this place as if I really need fucking help. I’m not like the rest of these people and you know it. Banging their heads and shit. I don’t do that.”
“I understand your frustration, Lisa, that’s why I’m here to help you. I want you to get better so you can go home to your family. Trust me, I’m on your side.”
“Well, get me out of here. My ex-husband and my mother committed me on purpose. They both hate me!”
“I want to help you get out, but over the course of four months, we still haven’t made much progress. This is going to be a long road to recovery if you continue to shut me out. Can you at least give me a chance to help you?”
I rolled my eyes. “Whatever.”
“Let’s get started. So, during your last session we discussed your childhood and you seemed to be very fond of your dad. Then we spoke about the birth of your son, Juan, and the relationship you had with him. On your intake sheet that your mother filled out, it states you also have a daughter, where’s your daughter now?”
“I don’t have any children, and I would rather if we spoke about something else.”
Dr. Ju wrote something down on a piece of paper before continuing. “Okay, well let’s talk about your husband, Juan Sanchez Sr., he’s known as Rich, correct?”
“Rich is my ex -husband. We’ve been divorced now for almost a year.”
“Oh, sorry. So, was he was your first love?”
“Once upon a time I thought Rich was the best thing that ever happened to me. When we were young we were so happy. If he would’ve never been in that car accident, our lives would’ve probably been different.”
“Why do you say that?” Dr. Ju inquired.
“Well, he was a basketball star in high school and there was talk of him being drafted right into the NBA. Well, all that changed when he was in a nearly fatal car accident.”
“How so?”
“He started to get involved in the streets heavily and that’s when the infidelity started, which ultimately made our lives a lot harder.”
“Was he a good father to his children?”
“He was a great father to his daughter, but he hated my son.”
“So, you said earlier that you didn’t have any children and didn’t wanna talk about it. Can I ask why?”
“Because I don’t.” I was aggravated all of a sudden.
“Lisa, you’ve gotta learn how to deal with problems if you ever want to get better,” Dr. Ju advised. “You were doing so good. Don’t shut down now.”
I let out a huge sigh, then paused for a moment. Maybe if I give this bitch want she wants she’ll let me out of here , I thought. “Both my son and daughter passed away.”
“I’m so sorry to hear that. How did they die?”
“My son was murdered and my daughter, well she…she’s not here anymore.”
“What happened to your daughter?” Dr. Ju questioned.
“Whatever they told you they lied!” I quickly yelled. At that moment, I got hyped. “I didn’t mean to kill Carlie, but when Rich took his brother, Carlos away from me and I found out Carlos wasn’t her father, I just couldn’t help myself.”
Dr. Ju looked at me strangly. “So, what did you do Lisa?”
“Rich did it. When he killed Carlos he messed everything up. It’s his fault.”
She wrote something down on her piece of paper once again. A part of me knew I shouldn’t have told a stranger my business, but it