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    “Oh, that’s terrible,” Alex says but doesn’t mean it, because it sounds like par for the course.
    “Pretty soon I’m going to be the only one there who’s never needed a divorce lawyer.” She beams and goes for the Seagram’s. “Aren’t you proud of your mother for that?”
    “Proud,” he murmurs.
    She pours over ice. “An eighteen-year marriage, still as intact now as the day of the ceremony. These days that’s quite an accomplishment. Have you seen my Valium?”
    He spits out a likely location, mostly out of reflex, and when she checks, it’s there and she downs a couple. Mom has three separate prescriptions from three different doctors that she fills at three different pharmacies and she still can’t keep track of them. Once he told her she should tie the bottles with strings to her wrists, like careless children with their mittens, and she actually thought he was serious. Worse, for a moment he thought she considered trying it.
    “Someone said the high school prom is in three weeks,” Mom calls out. “You’re going, aren’t you?”
    “I haven’t thought much about it.” The idea of putting on a tuxedo makes him queasy. He doesn’t bother telling her that the prom is a junior-senior activity and he’s only a sophomore, which is just as well, because what’s he supposed to do, whisk the girl there and back on his skateboard? Maybe next year he’ll feel better about tuxedos. At least he’ll have a car.
    “Why don’t you ask Tawny Bradley?” Mom doesn’t let up. She can’t be thinking about grandchildren, though, because the notion of her becoming a grandmother would probably send her off seeking a fourth prescription. “Her mother was there today, and it didn’t sound like she was going with anybody yet. You’ve always liked her, haven’t you?”
    Alex swallows a sick lump in his throat. “Maybe I will.” It’s the quickest way out of this, combination safety valve and backup parachute all in one. Maybe I will . It gets her off his back.
    Mom knows good and well he’s always liked Tawny, or at least used to. Alex and Tawny went to the same gradeschool, where he developed a giant industrial strength crush on her in fifth grade, and she pretended not to notice that he was alive.
    He made the mistake of confiding this unrequited love to Mom and Dad, as he was naïve in those days, and the memory still claws at him as viciously as a tiger. There was a night when they bought him a tape recorder because they said it might do him good to record some of his class lectures, and he looked at it thinking But I’m only in fifth grade , and they were all three sprawled out on the family room floor so they could show him how it worked. For some reason Tawny’s name came up and he remembers that he blushed and before he knew it the tape was rolling and Mom was singing her name over and over and he was absolutely mortified. Then Dad joined in like he was a bass singer for some dinosaur 1950s group and he was crooning, “Tawny, I neeeeed you,” and they kept it up because they found it so amusing, and all the while his thin, piping voice rose to a frantic screech begging them to stop while on the tape he fancied he could hear the sizzle of tears as they vaporized down his burning cheeks.
    It’s probably the one thing he can never forgive them for, because even today whenever he talks to a girl he remembers the shame he felt that night that love was somehow wrong and something to hide and they made him cry for wanting the girl two rows over to notice him. So if they never have any fucking grandchildren it’s their own fault, theirs and the Sony Corporation’s.
    He’s about to go downstairs to his room when he looks back and sees Mom standing in front of a hallway mirror looking over her shoulder at her behind and she shifts to catch the view from various angles, and the Seagram’s sloshes in her glass. “Do you think I need a butt tuck?” she asks.
    He doesn’t know what to