there any seats available at the bar?”
She giggles, twisting a lock of her red hair around her finger as she scrolls through a list, completely smitten by Seth. “Let me check.”
Seth pops a mint into his mouth and rolls his eyes at me from over his shoulder. “Wow.”
I smile at him then turn toward Luke and Kayden, but can’t find anything to say. I don’t do well with guys, except for Seth. I wish I did, but my memories just won’t let me.
Luke plucks a waxy leaf off the artificial plant near the door. “I thought Laramie was supposed to be more of a party town then it seems to be.”
I point at the window to my right. “It is farther down that way. There’s a lot of clubs and stuff.”
With his buzzed brown hair, a tattoo around his forearm, and intense brown eyes, Luke always looks like he’s about to start a fight and it makes me want to cower back. “So you know where they are?”
“I’ve heard of where they are.” I peek out of the corner of my eye at Kayden. He’s listening to me intently as he leans against the door with his arms crossed over his chest. Why is he looking at me like that? Like he’s actually seeing me. “But I haven’t been to many of them.”
“Yeah, you were never really a party girl, were you?” Luke flicks the leaf to the floor.
“Actually she kind of was at one time,” Kayden intervenes with a proud expression on his face. “I remember now. It was the beginning of sixth grade and my mom was supposed to bring the cake, but she forgot or something… I think it was your birthday.”
“I was turning twelve.” My voice is breathless as the images of balloons, confetti, and pink frosting surface, but then bleed away into a pool of blood. “And that doesn’t make me a party girl, just a little girl who wanted a birthday party… that’s all I wanted.”
They stare at me like I’ve lost my mind and I try to mentally summon my lips to form words, but they are bound together by the painful memories crushing my heart.
“Okay, I got us a table, but it’s not at the bar.” Seth strolls up and drapes his arm around my shoulder. “What’s up? You look sick.”
I blink several times and then force a smile. “I’m just tired.”
He knows I’m lying, but won’t bring it up in front of Kayden or Luke. “Then we should probably get you back early.”
The hostess ushers us to our table and leaves the menus for us to look over, along with four glasses of ice water, flaunting Seth a grin before she heads back to the front. My vision is clouded by dark thoughts I’ve tried not to think about in a while, and I can’t see a single word on the list. I press the palms of my hands to my eyes and blink.
“I think I need to admit something,” Kayden announces. When I glance up at him, a slow grin turns up at his lips. “I don’t like Sushi. In fact, it kind of creeps me out.”
“Me too,” I agree with a timid smile. “It’s weird that it’s not cooked.”
“She’s never had it,” Seth divulges, turning the page of his menu. “So technically, she can’t put in her opinion.”
“I think she can offer her opinion.” From beneath the table, Kayden’s knee brushes mine, whether accidental or not, I’m unsure. It sends a hot flow of heat up my body that makes my stomach somersault. “It seems like a valuable opinion.”
I don’t know how to take his compliment, so I keep my lips fastened.
“I’m not saying it’s not valuable,” Seth explains. “Only that she may like it if she tried it. A code that I live by.”
I’m sipping my water and I snort a laugh, choking on a piece of ice. “Oh my God.”
Seth pats my back with his hand. “Are you going to make it?”
I nod, pressing my palm to my chest. “Yeah, no more jokes while I’m drinking, though, okay?”
“It’s what I live by.” There’s a sparkle in his eyes as he grins