quotidian remark that has nothing to do with the real business. That is exactly what Lettuce had done.
Isabel let the letter drop to the floor. It fell facedown, but the ink from the signature had seeped through the cheap paper to provide faint mirror-writing on the back. Ecuttel. That was a far better name for him, far more sinister than Lettuce. Ecuttel and his lackey, Evod. The thought made her feel slightly better, but only slightly; engaging in such childish fantasies is merely a way of protecting ourselves from the sense of hurt that comes from betrayal or injustice. But it works only for a moment or two.
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GRACE WAS IN THE KITCHEN , sitting in front of Charlie, who was strapped into a reclining baby chair placed on top of the table. She was holding a knitted figure of what looked like a policeman and moving it up and down to get Charlieâs attention. She looked up when Isabel came into the room but then transferred her gaze back to the baby.
âFed up already?â Grace said. âLook at this. He loves this little policeman. I think it must be the dark blue. He thinks it very funny.â
Isabel nodded. She looked at Charlie, and then looked back at Grace. She wanted to say to her, âIâve been sacked. Iâm the victim ofâ¦â But what was she the victim of? A palace coup was perhaps the best way of describing it. Or maybe she should call it a putsch, which had a more strongly pejorative air to it, a hint of violent overthrow. That was perhaps overstating matters a bitâ¦
âIâve beenââ
Grace interrupted her. âI think heâs tired,â she said. âLook, his eyes are shutting. There he goes.â
No, thought Isabel. Iâm not going to tell her. I shall keep this humiliation private. Then, later this year, I shall simply announce that I have given up the editorship of the Review, which will be true, and if anybody should ask the reason I shall tell them. But until then I shall continue as before.
Grace now turned to Isabel. âSorry, youâve been what?â
âIâve been thinking of going into town,â said Isabel. âIf youâre happy enough looking after Charlie.â
Grace reassured her that this would be fine.
âThank you,â said Isabel, and left the kitchen, lest Grace should see the tears that had come into her eyes. She had never been dismissed before and was unused to the particular form of pain it entailed. It was as bad as being left by a lover, or almost as bad, she thought, and in her case she did not even depend on the tiny salary she drew as editor, an honorarium really. What, she wondered, would it be like to lose the job that brought food to the family table, as happened to people all the time? That was a sobering thought, sufficient to forestall the self-pity of one in her positionâand it did.
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CHAPTER FOUR
S HE WALKED INTO TOWN . Isabel very rarely took her green Swedish car into the city because of parking problems. She suspected, though, that she would use it more now that Charlie had arrived; babies required such a quantity of paraphernalia that the car, she thought, would become more and more tempting. She believed in public transport, and acted accordingly, but she was not one to become obsessed with the issue of her carbon footprints, or to lecture others on theirs. And the green Swedish car, she reminded herself, was green in another senseâunlike those intimidating machines which some people drove; those monsters with their tanklike bulk from which small, urban people stared down. Isabel had read of a man who had entered on a private crusade against these vehicles, attaching notes to their windscreens telling their owners just how irresponsible their choice of car was. She could understand that, even if she could never do it herself: it was one thing to think such things, another to tell other people what one thought.
But concern for the environment was not the