September 3
EnglishâFirst Period
Tylerâs back today. I was surprised to see him. For some reason, I thought heâd stay at home or something. Mrs. Harrison got him a chair to prop his foot up on when he came in on his crutches. Heâs wearing a big white brace that wraps all the way around his left leg with Velcro straps and keeps his knee from bending. I can see it out of the corner of my eye because he sits right behind me. I caught his eye and said, âHey, man,â when he passed my desk. He didnât smile or anythingânot that I can blame him. When Tyler gets pissed, you know it.
Tyler. Is. Pissed.
I am really afraid that heâs going to be pissed at mepersonally. Even though I know itâs not my fault. Hell, I even tried to stop him from running that play. It wonât matter though. When Tyler gets angry, he doesnât think anything through. He was mad at me one time because I got a better grade on a chemistry test we studied for together last year. He was a total dick to me for a whole week even though he was the one who was texting Erin the whole time I was trying to quiz him about the periodic table. Somehow, when he flunked the test, it was all my fault.
Finally I just told him to screw off. I said, âDude. Itâs not my fault you didnât study. Itâs not my fault you didnât pay attention when I tried to help you. Itâs not my fault your grade in the class was already in the shitter so flunking one more test got you benched for three games.â
And then? Boom. Just like that everything was cool again. He didnât apologize, but when I finally stood up to him, he backed off.
I hate feeling like thatâs going to happen again.
Of course, Monica would say that it isnât happening again. Not yet anyway. Sheâs always going on about how people worry all the time about whatâs going to happen in the future so it ruins what is happening right this second. Sheâs always writing LITN in big letters on stuffâher notebooks, sticky notes in her locker, under her name when she signs somebodyâs yearbook; online itâs her hash tag for almost everything: #LITN. Live in the now.
I guess Iâm not so good with that. I like to be prepared for whatâs coming next. Itâs why I work so hard in practice and even write plays out sometimes. Nothing is worse than a moment on the field where you get taken by surpriseâwhere you donât see it coming. Itâs called getting blindsided for a reason.
Crap . . .
Joy Lucht just came in late and was walking to her seat behind Tylerâs desk. She accidentally bumped the chair his foot is propped up on with her purse, and Tyler shrieked and cussed a blue streak. Dropped an f-bomb in the middle of class. Everybody froze.
Joy was tripping over herself to apologize, and Mrs. Harrison calmly walked down the row and told her to sit, that it would be okay. Tyler was red in the face. He threw his notebook on the ground and yelled that it would not be âf-ingâ okay, only he said it. He actually said it again . In class. To a teacher.
The only person I would rather not piss off in the entire universe besides Tyler is Mrs. Harrison. She stood very still right next to Tylerâs desk, just behind my left shoulder, for what seemed like a very long time. She was giving him the kind of look that turned animals to stone in Narnia. âHave you lost your mind?â
Tyler crossed his arms and looked in the other direction.
âExcuse me. I am speaking to you.â Mrs. Harrison has this way of saying things when she demands to be heard that is . . .well, terrifying. She very rarely speaks in this manner, so when she does, it is generally very impressive. Itâs not loud, exactly. In fact, itâs less a matter of volume and more a matter of tone.
Even Tyler was no match for it. He turned and looked at her.
âI asked you a question, sir.
W. Michael Gear, Kathleen O’Neal Gear