touch of arrogance, a dash of indifference for my motherâs wishes.â I can imagine the gleam of mischief in his blue eyes. âIâll let you know which train to get on tomorrow. Iâm sure there will be a new group of servants coming inâeveryone is going crazy preparing for the Auction. Iâll send out word that weâre expecting you.â
âThank you, Garnet,â I say fervently.
âDonât mention it. Hey, is Raven there?â
âThought youâd never ask,â she says, stepping forward with a grin.
âBusiness before pleasure, always. Do you have time to talk?â
Raven laughs. âIâm not the one with the crazy wife and the overbearing mother. Iâve got all the time in the world.â
âYes, but youâve got Sil, and she isnât exactly a bucket of rainbows, is she? Kidding, Sil!â he says quickly before Sil can retort.
Raven takes the arcana to the front porch. I say good night to Sil and the girls and head to the barn to break the news to Ash.
H EâS BY THE GOAT PEN, ONE OF THEM NUZZLING HIS HAND searching for an extra treat, when I enter.
For a moment, I just stand and watch him, the strength of his shoulders, the curve of his arms, the gentleness in his touch as he rubs a black-and-white-spotted goat behind the ears. I breathe in the calm before I break it.
âAsh?â I say timidly.
He turns around and lets out a strangled yelp when he sees my new face. âWhatâ Violet ?â
âItâs me,â I say, stepping forward. He comes closer, inspecting my eyes and nose and hair with a little bit of wonder and a lot of confusion.
âThe Auguries?â he asks. I nod. âWhy?â
I explain what Lucien told me about the danger Hazel is in, and how Garnet is going to hire me to work in the palace. I see his face turn from incredulous to downright stormy.
âYouâre serious,â he says. âYouâre leaving the White Rose. Youâre abandoning your own plan and going into the Jewel, into the heart of danger.â
I swallow. âYes.â
âFine.â He turns and climbs up the hayloft ladder, tossing a few things he keeps up there down, an extra shirt, his pocket watch, the photograph of his family that he took from Madame Curioâs companion house. Then he climbs back down the ladder. âIâm coming with you.â
âWhat? No, Ash, you canât.â
âAnd you can?â
âI donât look like me! I donât have a million Regimentals trying to find and execute me. Garnet will look after me. Iâll be safe.â
âGarnet has his own role in this revolution,â Ash says. âHe canât put everything on hold just to watch over you.â He starts shoving the items into a small satchel. âEveryone in the whole damned city has a role in this revolution, except me.â
He throws the bag over his shoulder and glares.
âSo when do we leave?â he asks.
I wait for a few moments, until his breathing has calmed slightly. Then I step forward and place a hand on his cheek.
âAsh, you canât ,â I say. âYouâd never make it past the Bank.â
âStop trying to keep me safe all the time, when you clearly donât show the same consideration for yourself.â The chickens cluck nervously as he begins to pace around the barn. âYouâre always telling me to stay here, be patient, be protected, but what if thatâs not what I want? What if I want to do more, no matter the risk? And you feel like you can just waltz off to the Jewel because Hazel is in danger and expect everyone to understand. Well, I donât , Violet. I donât understand.â
âShe is in danger,â I say.
âWeâre all in danger!â Ash shouts, and Turnip whinnies, shaking her mane. He runs his hand down her long neck to calm her. âDonât you even see the hypocrisy here?
Janwillem van de Wetering