my fingertips. I look around. It seems so normal, doesnât it? Not like a disaster scene. Bob just hangs around with a stupid, stunned expression on his face.
âSheâs a vampire,â I say numbly.
âSo is
that
.â He nods in the direction of the hall door, pointing at Lecter and his quick-release carapace.
âThatâs . . . different.â I donât know why I should feel defensive. Lecter wanted to kill Bob, didnât he? First he wanted to kill Mhari, then . . . Bob.
âThe difference is, now it wants me dead.â Bob looks at me. Heâs tired and careworn, and thereâs something else. âYou know that, donât you?â
âWhen it turned on you, it was horrible.â I shudder. I canât seem to stop shaking. The paranoia, the suspicion: they say thereâs no smoke without fire, but what if an enemy is laying a smoke screen to justify terrible acts? âOh God, that was awful.â
You should be dead, Bob,
something whispers at the back of my mind. Lecter is too powerful. âBob, how did you stop it? You shouldnât have been able to . . .â
âAngletonâs dead.â
âWhat?â
âThe Code Red last night. The intruder was a, an ancient PHANG. He killed Angleton.â
âOh my God. Oh my God.â
I lose the plot completely for a few seconds. Stupid me. I reach for him across the infinite gulf of the kitchen table and heâs still there, only different. He takes my hand. âYouâre
him
now.â Angleton is another of our ancient monsters, the mortal vessel of the Eater of Souls. One of the night haunts upon whose shoulders the Laundry rests. For years heâs used Bob as a footstool, dropping tidbits of lore in front of him, sharing abilities, but over these past two years, Bobâs become something more: the ritual at Brookwood, where the Brotherhood of the Black Pharaoh tried to sacrifice him, changed something in him. Now heâs different. The way he managed to break through Lecterâs siren song . . .
âNot really,â he demurs. I feel a flicker of sullen resentment: his talent for self-deprecation borders on willful blindness. âBut I have access to a lot of, ofââ He falls silent. âStuff.â
Unpalatable facts:
Bob and I have come this far together by treating life as a three-legged race, relying on one another to keep us sane when we simply canât face up to what weâre doing anymore. Iâve come to count on our relationship working like this, but in the space of a couple of hours the rug has been pulled from under my feet.
This is a new and unfamiliar Bob. Whether heâs lying or not, whether he was hosting an innocent sleepover in a safe house or carrying on an affair in my own bed while I was away, pales into insignificance compared to the unwelcome realization that he isnât just Bob anymore, but Bob with eldritch necromantic strings attached. Heâs finally stepped across a threshold I passed long ago, realized that he has responsibilities larger than his own life. And it means weâre into terra incognita.
âWhat are you going to do?â I ask him.
âI should destroy that thing.â His expression as he looks at thehall doorway is venomous, but I can tell from the set of his shoulders that he knows how futile the suggestion is. I feel a pang of mild resentment. Iâd like to be rid of the violin, too; what does he think carrying it does to me?
âThey wonât let you. The organization needs it. Itâs all I can do to keep squashing the proposals to make more of them.â
âYes, but if I donât itâs going to try and kill me again,â he points out.
I try to plot a way out of the cleft stick we find ourselves in. Of course, there isnât one. âI canât let go of it.â I chew my lip. âIf I let go of itâreturn it to Supplies,