moved like a cat burglar around the side of the house where inside I could hear Einstein clawing at the back door. My dog was a face full of wrinkles with a brown ring around her eye and a knack for thwarting the pursuit of higher knowledge, despite her promising namesake. She had only two talents: smelling and wreaking havoc.
The growl revved up. It was only a matter of moments before my mother would come looking for me to quiet her down. I tippy-toed over to the back door. Einsteinâs paw was splitting through the blinds, and I could see her shiny black nose peeking through.
I opened the door, and Einstein let out a squeal.
âTor?â There was a voice in the darkness. I stiffened. âIs that you?â
âYes, Mom?â came my tentative reply.
âItâs late, idnit ?â she asked. Her speech was throaty, and it came from the living room. There was rustling, and then she appeared in the doorframe of the kitchen still dressed in jeans and a moth-eaten sweater that hung off one frail shoulder. Her stringy hair was slept on, and she had that sluggish, hollowed-out look in her eyes that came from hours of television and too many glasses of wine.
âSorry, Mom. Iâve been working.â I held on to Einsteinâs collar while she wiggled her army tank of a back end and licked what was most likely blood off my jeans. Mom hadnât been the same since my father died. Sometimes it seemed like sheâd died right along with him and left the shell of her body here to tend to me. It was like living with a ghost.
She smacked her lips and ran a finger over the cracked bottom one. âYou know, young lady ⦠God ⦠punished Adam and Eve,â she said slowly, as though she were sounding out the words. â⦠For eating an apple ⦠from the tree of knowledgeâ¦â She wagged a floppy finger at me before dropping it limply to her side. âHe could, Tor, you know he could.â She was babbling her usual confused prattling of words when we crossed paths late at night, or sometimes not so late, sometimes already by dinner. Momâs church shows had been her refuge since my dad died. Sometimes she even joined ladiesâ Bible study on Sundays.
âGo to bed, Mom. Itâs late.â At no point did she register my own state of disrepair, probably because I fit right in with the rest of the house we shared like two messy college roommates. A half-eaten piece of dried toast lay next to the sink, where dishes were piled up to the faucet. In the living room I could see a shirt flung over the back of a recliner.
âYou go to bed.â Her brow lowered over her eyes, and she looked like she was trying very hard to concentrate on this one specific thing she remembered, in her more lucid moments, that she was supposed to be doingâparenting.
âIâm going to bed,â I lied. But Mom didnât budge, and I was beginning to conjure up some awfully creative curse words for my meddling canine. âFine,â I said. âWeâre going.â I dragged Einstein past her to my bedroom, where I left the door open a sliver. My heart sank when I saw her sink back down onto the couch.
I lowered to the floor and waited to hear sirens. Sirens I knew must be coming. But all was eerily quiet except for Einsteinâs soft snorts. Every second I spent in my bedroom was agony.
After what felt like an eternity, my motherâs snores filled the house. âCome on.â I patted my leg, and Einstein waddled after me. We left Mom sleeping openmouthed on the couch with one arm dangling on the floor.
I had to carry Einstein like a sack of potatoes down the cellar stairs to the boyâs body. It was exactly where Iâd left it, which seemed to be fairly normal corpse activity. The only difference was that Einstein crouched to her belly and began growling in his general direction.
I patted her head. âCut that out,â I told