finger to her lips, amazed that heâd remembered that long-ago conversationâ¦
âYou used to,â he said quietly. âWe stood here in the garden and talked about myths, and I told you I was past the age of believing in them. And you said that you did.â
âThat was a long time ago.â
âThree years?â He drew the cigarette to his broad, chiseled mouth. âLong enough. Has reporting made you cynical, little girl? Has it made you bloodless, painless, invulnerable?â
She shuddered, although the night was warm, hearing that rescue workerâs voice in her mind as sheâd heard it for six months, âWhat the hell are you people, vultures?! My God, youâre making a carnival out of itâ¦!â
âNO!â The word broke from her, and she clasped her hands around her shaking body and turned away from him, with a knife-like pain in her heart. She took a deep breath.
âWhatâs the matter, Meredith?â He moved closer. âDid I hit a nerve?â
She closed her eyes. âIâ¦finished the invitation calls,â she said, businesslike and calm again. âDo you have anything in particular for me to get out tomorrow, sir?â
He drew a sharp breath, as if he didnât like the change of subject, and turnedaway. He started rattling off chores, and her mind wandered briefly away to the sound of angry voices and weeping and yelled commandsâ¦
ââ¦need that letter out first thing in the morning,â he was saying as she forced her mind back to the present. âAnd cancel that Rotary Club speech, I donât have time. Think youâve got all that, Meredith?â he asked gruffly.
She nodded. âYes, sir. What about Mr. Samson? He was supposed to meet you for a drink after the Rotary meeting.â
âEfficient, arenât you?â he growled, his dark eyes narrow and angry in the soft white moonlight.
âYou pay me to be efficient, Mr. Devereaux,â she said primly. âWhat about Mr. Samson?â
âTell him Iâll meet him for lunch Friday at the country club.â
âYou canât,â she reminded him. âYou have to be in Chicago Friday to discuss the Shore contract.â
âThen Monday.â
âYes, sir.â She turned away.
âMeredith?â
âYes, sir?â
There was a hesitation, about the space of a heartbeat. âWalk with me.â
Confused, she turned and fell into step beside him, his behavior making her mind spin. From anger to companionship in seconds, his lightning mood changes stunned her. He wasnât a tall man, she thought, noticing that he was barely half a head taller than she was in her three-inch heels. But he was so big, so broad and leonine, that he seemed to tower over people. Warmth and power radiated from him, a dark, strong warmth that made her want to feel the strength in his armsâ¦She flicked her eyes toward the house, trying to ignore the buried longings that his company was resurrecting.
He took a long draw from his cigarette. âWhy reporting?â he asked conversationally. âWhy not fashion or advertising?â
She watched the shimmer of moonlight on the dewy grass. âBecause I could write. I never wanted to do anything else. At first,â she recalled, smiling, âI wanted tobe a novelist. But I found out that a lot of people wanted to be novelists, people with more talent than Iâd ever have. So I settled for truth instead of fiction.â
âTruth?â he asked quietly.
She withdrew, like a child that had stretched its hand toward a warm, welcoming flame, only to have it burned. âIâm sorry.â
He laughed mirthlessly. âYou cost me a fortune. And youâre sorry.â
She closed her eyes against the hurt. âI tried to tell you that I didnât leave the word out. It was there, on my copy, when the magazine came outâ¦!â
âWas it?â he
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