came back and handed Pauline a fresh hanky. âYou poor dear. Some men are just bad that way.â
âWhere were you headed?â April May persisted.
Pauline shook her head and shrugged. âHere.â
âIâm not following,â April May said. âYou just said you didnât know where you were.â
âWe t-took the train for as long as we could. I didnât have a plan except to get away. I chose to go south and then east and I just went as far as we could. As f-far as I could afford. I chose this place because I liked the name. Isnât that silly?â
âMatter of fact,â April May replied thoughtfully, âI think it was a wise move. And Iâll tell you why. Itâs an awful big country, Pauline. Even if the son of a bitch does want to come after you, if you chose a direction and went someplace you didnât know, how could he guess where youâre at?â
Pauline managed a deep breath. The center of her back ached, but mostly she felt stunned that sheâd just admitted her darkest truth. She hadnât told anyone in all the years of her marriage, yet sheâd just blurted the truth to two women sheâd known for a matter of minutes. âHeâs despicable. But he n-never hurt either of the children before last week.â
âOh, honey,â Cessie said as she sat back down. âThat must have been terrible for you.â
Pauline nodded. It had been a thousand times worse than any beating sheâd endured, and it had just been one blowâone undeserved blow to her four-year-old son, who had done nothing to provoke his father. âI gathered all the money Iâd hidden away over the years, and we ran. We just ran.â
âOf course you did, dear,â Cessie commiserated. âItâs what any good mother would have done.â
âI thought we could s-settle into a boarding house and I could find work.â
âWhat sort of work?â Cessie asked.
Pauline shook her head. âWhatever I can get.â
âWhat are you good at?â April May asked.
Pauline clenched her fists, digging her fingernails into her palms to ward off more tears. âB-baking. Keeping house. I could be a maid or a cook orââ
âSip your wine, dear,â Cessie soothed. âIâm going to get you a cool rag for your face. The children will be in soon and you donât want to worry them.â
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When Rebecca and Jake came in for supper, the table was set and the ladies were sitting around it. It was a pretty house with lots of dark furniture and pretty knickknacks, but the most enticing things were the offerings of mutton chops, thick slices of buttered bread, and bean salad. Rebeccaâs stomach growled. âIt looks good.â
âGlad you think so,â Cessie replied with a warm smile. âHave a seat.â
Rebecca saw that her motherâs eyes were red rimmed and she looked more tired than ever before. She chose the seat next to April May and across from her mother, while Jake sat next to Mama. âWhy do you have donkeys?â she asked April May.
âWhy not?â April May shot back. âYou donât have something against donkeys, do you?â
âNo.â
âShall we say grace?â Cessie suggested.
They bowed their heads.
âGrace,â April May said.
Cessie clucked her tongue in disapproval.
âJust kiddinâ. Good company, good meat, good Lord, letâs eat.â
Rebecca and Jake giggled while Cessie sighed loudly. âDear Lord, bless this food for the nourishment of our bodies, and thank you for our new friends. Amen.â
âAmen,â Pauline echoed. âAnd thank you,â she said, looking first at Cessie and then April May.
Cessie smiled. April May gave her a nod and a wink.
âRebecca, honey,â Cessie said. âYou help yourself to what you want. We donât stand on formality here.â
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