my comics, and getting rid of all my spider stuff if they discovered that Marie and I ever did as much as exchange another email. And Marieâs parents were always stricter than mine; I can only imagine how bad it was for her. I havenât even spoken to her since then. I hear she has a boyfriend now.
I dress entirely in black, and I clasp a gold chain around my neck. Itâs a handmade necklace by an African artist; on it hangs a jewelled effigy of Nyiko, the heroic spider god of Cameroon whose mythic adventures inspired Steve Rand to create Spiderkid. Marie gave it to me for my twelfth birthday.
I weep a little, and the eyeliner runs.
Shit. I have to redo it.
I really need to go out and talk to some new people. Iâm stuck in a sad, nostalgic rut tonight, and I hate it.
Itâs retro trip-hop night at The Flyâs Joint. I get a beer and sit at the bar. I recognize a few faces from campus, but nobody I know. Thatâs good and bad. Iâm dying to have a conversation, but I donât initiate contact easily. Iâm so tired of seeing the same reflection in familiar eyes, though, and I want to meet someone new.
By my second sip of beer, Iâm already feeling depressed. The place is full of people, laughing, drinking, dancing, and I feel like a pile of toxic waste polluting everything that comes near me. The space between me and everyone else in the club expands, isolating me; even the music starts to sound muffled and distant . . .
. . . And I see them playing pool; immediately my sour mood evaporates, and Iâm focused, interested, fascinated. The man is Asian, probably Chinese: heâs tall, with broad shoulders, a squarish face, and black hair tied back in a pony tail. The woman is white, with wavy hair coming down to her shoulder blades, streaked in multiple colours. Theyâre both dressed in black: heâs wearing shorts and a loose tank top; sheâs wearing a short skirt with a bra top. Spiders cover their well-defined bodies: their legs, their backs, their arms, their faces . . .
My throat feels desperately dry, and I quickly down the rest of my beer. Then I walk toward them; I canât take my eyes off their bodies, their tattoos.
When I reach the pool table, theyâre both facing away from me, concentrating on the game. Boldly, I say hello â but they take no notice.
They might not have registered that I was speaking to them. Itâs so noisy they might not have heard me at all. So I just stand there watching them play, nervously fiddling with my necklace, biting my lips, hoping for eye contact.
Theyâre both very good players, pulling off complicated and daring calls. Five shots later, the man notices me and nods his head in greeting, smiling warmly. His eyes widen when he notices the Nyiko pendant around my neck.
He touches the womanâs shoulder and whispers to her, pointing at me.
She turns around â I gasp, seeing her face clearly for the first time. âMarie.â
And I faint.
Iâm lying on my back, and I feel the weight of a hand on my stomach, a warm breath brushing against my ear. I open my eyes, and I donât recognize where I am. I jump out of bed, alarmed.
And then I hear my name. I recognize her voice, even though itâs deeper now, more confident. On the bed thereâs Marie, her makeup smeared by tears. She says, âI visit your Spiderkid website all the time, you know.â
I start crying. I donât know how I managed to spend these past six years without her.
Iâm back on the bed, and weâre kissing, our tongues hungrily probing each otherâs mouths, our hands impatiently tugging at each otherâs clothes. Marie touches my neck, and her fingers fall on the pendant. She takes her mouth away from mine, and she looks at Nyiko, tenderly caressing the icon. She lifts it and slides her tongue on my collarbone, on the sensitive skin of my neck.
Soon weâre naked. Marie is naked. I stand