you think?â
He had no idea in the world how to answer her. âThis couldnât be pre-mommy jitters, could it?â
âYouâre not listening,â she declared, looking for all the world as if she were about to cry.
âIâm trying . . . but youâre not saying anything that makes sense.â
âThatâs the problem. It doesnât make sense, but Iâm not making this up. Itâs like Iâm all over the place. Feeling things I shouldnât. And yet, I donât feel them, really. Not in my heart. Itâs like itâs someone else and Iâm watching myself from a distance.â
Hale regarded her soberly. He hardly knew what to say. âIt sounds like fear.â
She blinked a couple of times. âI am afraid.â
âOf having a baby?â
She didnât answer.
âHave you talked to Savannah about this?â he asked.
âI called her, but she canât come over till later. Work, I guess. It always is.â She clenched her teeth, then shook her head and shrugged her shoulders several times. âOh, letâs not talk about it anymore.â
âWait. We need toââ
âWhat do you want to do about dinner? Iâm not hungry.â
Hale fought back an angry comeback. He knew better. Whenever she changed her mind like this, further discussion was impossible.
This had become another usual thing for them. Separate meal times by virtue of different schedules. The only problem was Kristina was turning into skin and bones. She was never hungry. âWe could go to that Italian restaurant,â he suggested, tamping down his frustration, hoping to continue the conversation later.
âGinoâs? Itâll take too long. I want to be here when Savvy gets here.â
âHow about if we order and I go pick up?â
âI said I wasnât hungry.â
âIâll just get something for me, then.â
She didnât respond, and Hale gave up and headed for the phone. Unlike Kristina, he was half starved. It had been a long day even before he got to his grandfatherâs house, and heâd missed lunch. The wine was going straight to his head, and he needed to counteract the effects.
He ordered chicken and artichoke linguine, a Caesar salad, and garlic bread, enough for two regardless of what sheâd said, then drank a glass of water as he waited for the fifteen minutes to pass while the food was being prepared. Kristina poured herself a second glass of wine, but she didnât touch it while he was there.
He drove to the restaurant and noticed sheâd left her overnight bag in his carâagain. She was forever borrowing the TrailBlazer for a quick trip over the mountains, then forgetting her bag. Then again, she was forgetting a lot these days, like how desperately she had wanted a child.
When he returned from Ginoâs with the bag, she was nowhere in sight. He filled two plates with the food, set them on the counter, then went in search of his wife. She was sitting on the bed, leaning against the headboard and staring into space. The untouched wine was sitting on the nightstand.
âYouâre starting to really worry me,â he said.
âI donât want you to leave me, Hale. Whatever happens. Promise me you wonât leave me.â
âWhat the hell, Kristina?â This was a new tack for her.
âPromise me,â she insisted.
âIâm not going to leave you.â
âEven if you find out terrible things about me?â
He started to answer automatically, to lie, but stopped himself. âIâm not doing this. Iâm going to eat,â he said and stalked back down the hall, his heart heavy with doubts and his head full of worries about the future.
CHAPTER 3
T he rain slanted against the windshield as Savannah drove north from the TCSD toward Deception Bay and Siren Song. Sheâd stopped by her houseâonce her parentsâ, now hers and