inside her other hand, looking for all the world like she was hanging on by a thread.
âWe need to get ready for the baby,â Hale said. âWe need to work together. You know we do.â
âWeâre prepared,â she said, not looking at him. âWeâve got everything we need.â
It sounded like she was running through an inventory in her mind, and that worried Hale even more. âDo you still want our little boy?â he wanted to ask her. âDo you?â He felt angry and helpless. Because I do.
His anger dissipated as he saw how unsettled she really was. âYou want a glass of wine?â he asked her as she stared into the middle distance. âIâm going to have one.â
âOkay . . .â
Returning to the kitchen, he pulled a bottle of cabernet from the built-in wine rack, which was part of the center island. Yanking open a drawer, he found the corkscrew and quickly twisted out the cork. Kristina moved slowly into the kitchen and out to the sunroom, where rain was running in rivulets down the panes. He poured each of them a glass, brought hers to her, then took a deep swallow of his own, more like a gulp.
âI know Iâve been distant,â she said as if feeling her way.
This was the first attempt sheâd made to reach out to him, so he kept his mouth shut, waiting for her to go on. It was his fault, too, he knew. Heâd been buried in work; the lawsuits alone took up more time than he wanted to think about, and Bancroft Development was deep into construction projects both at the coast and around the Portland area.
She suddenly turned her back to the window and faced him, forcing her lips into a smile that just missed the mark. Before she could muster up more words, the smile fell off her face entirely, clearly too difficult to maintain. Sensing that, she buried her nose in her glass and took a long swallow herself.
What does this say about us? Hale wondered as they both drank deep gulps of wine in silence. Nothing good.
When she finally took a breath and offered up something, it took him aback.
âDo you believe in sorcery?â she asked tightly.
He half choked on his wine, laughed, then swallowed back the immediate gibe that sprang to his lips. âWell . . . no,â he said carefully.
âI knew youâd say that.â
He lifted a hand in a âYou got meâ gesture.
âI know how crazy it sounds, but I feel like somethingâs got ahold of me.â
âBad juju?â
âHale, please . . .â She brushed past him back into the kitchen and over to the counter, setting the wineglass on the island and then bracing herself. âIâm trying really hard to be honest with you and open and sharing . . . and youâre just pissing me off.â
âI donât know where youâre going with this,â he said, following after her.
âIâve made some bad decisions,â she said after a moment.
âLike what?â
âThings I thought I would never do. Nothing . . . criminal,â she assured him, though a spasm crossed her face. âDonât look at me like that.â
âLike what?â
âLike Iâm fucking crazy!â
âI donât think youâre crazy,â he said, taken aback.
âSome stuffâs happened, and it wasnât my fault. I made mistakes, but I honestly donât think I was really in control at the time.â
âYou gotta be more specific.â
âI think . . .â She struggled for a moment, choosing her words. âWell, maybe I am crazy, because it feels like Iâm under a spell. Like I have no will . . . like Iâve been hypnotized.â
âAt the risk of pissing you off some more, you seem pretty awake to me.â
âIt just doesnât make sense,â she said, on her own track. She made a sound between a laugh and a hiccup. âMaybe I am losing my mind a little. I donât know. What do