games-playing. I wouldnât be surprised if the Shadbolts decided to release you. What with this...fraud. And stories about having celiac disease. Do you have anything to say for yourself?â
This is where you do have some choices. I could throw a hissy fit. Havenât done that for a while. Iâm a littleout of practice. Hissy fits are always great, though, for stirring things up. Shirl looks like she could use a little zap of something.
Or I could cry. Havenât done that for a while, either. That time when Wilma came to see me two families ago. When I was still with the Tierneys. Can you believe I actually begged her to take me back with her? Welfare Wilma. She cried, too, and said it wasnât possible now that she was with Adam and there was the baby, Justin, and another baby on the way and hardly room for the three of them â soon to be four â in their apartment.
Crying can really mess up your eye make-up.
Or I could try the silent treatment. That makes everyone so angry they sometimes forget why youâre there in the first place.
But whatâs really sticking in my mind is Miss Barclay and her diamond brooch. And how she asked if I was coming to the lodge again. I know whatever I do now, I canât do anything to mess up seeing her next week.
That means apologizing. I donât have much practice with that, but how hard can it be?
âIâm sorry,â I say.
âWhat were you thinking?â asks the sunset tie. âWhat was more important than school?â
âNothing,â I mumble. And then I add, âI was... confused.â
Thatâll light up buttons for both Mussbacher and Gossling. Confused. Social workers and guidance counselors love that word.
âConfused?â
Jackpot. They repeat it at the same time.
âAbout whatâs important,â I say. âI didnât really like school when I first got here. But Iâm liking it a lot more now.â
âWhatâs caused the change?â
The third degree â and I better not slip up. Donât say anything about modeling. Theyâd jump all over that, go on forever about learning to walk before you can run and how you need to finish school before you can even think of anything else.
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Great Expectations
,â I say. âI canât believe how good that book is. Every day we get to talk about what weâve read in a literature circle.â
âWerenât you reading it two days ago when you signed my name to this note?â Finally Shirl talks. Tears are beginning to come. âPlease excuse Tamara. Her celiac disease has flared up.â
âWhat is all this nonsense about celiac disease?â Mr. Mussbacher gives me his double-whammy look.
âI thought I had it,â I say. âThere was a show on TV about it and...well, I thought maybe I had it.â
âShe does shy away from anything with flour in it.âShirl gives up a search for a Kleenex in her purse and grabs one from a box in the middle of the conference table. Counselors are always ready for criers.
âYou want to have a doctor check that out?â says Mr. Gossling.
Oops. Going to doctors. One of my least favorite things to do and I can just imagine what kinds of things they might do to test your digestive system.
âI think it was...â Choose your words carefully, I think. âA false alarm. I guess it was a false alarm.â
âWhat? You ate a doughnut and discovered it didnât kill you?â Mr. Mussbacher isnât buying it.
I smile at him.
âMainly I just donât like real starchy food. Itâs always like...well, like lead in my stomach.â
âHoney, you couldâve just said,â Shirl sighs. âHeaven knows it wouldnât hurt all of us to cut down, eat more...vegetables.â
It sounds to me like sheâs having a hard time getting that last word out.
âWe may be getting a little off track here,â