home.
I get back in the car and drive toward the single most dangerous place in the world for me right now. I should be terrified. I should turn around and go anywhere else. I should curl up in a ball and cry. Instead, I think about everything in the whole entire world that makes me angryâthere is a lot, oh, there is a lotâand I start singing Justin Bieber at the top of my lungs.
I can do this.
âITâS NOT FAIR.â I STAND, FEET PLANTED, ARMS crossed. I will not be scared of Ms. Robertson. I donât care how broad her shoulders are, how tight her bun is, how many students whisper that she knows youâre cheating without even looking at you. She doesnât scare me (she does, and I hate it).
âWhatâs not fair?â She raises a thin eyebrow at me.
âWhy is my test all essays? Everyone else has multiple choice!â
She smiles; it doesnât touch her eyes. It is a lie of a smile. She is a liar. Everyone here is a liar. I hate this place, I hate it, itâs wrong, every day itâs wrong and I feel sick all the time. I hate the two postcards Aunt Ellen has sent us in the three months since we came here, saying sheâs in Egypt and isnât it great that the school will do all holidays and summer breaks for us. I hate the beautiful dining room with the fancy food, I hate the laundry room with the spinning washing machines, I hate the classrooms with too few students and too much attention.
Annie loves it all. She has a private tutor. Theyâve talked with a geneticist about her eyes. She is happy.
âWell, Sofia, part of our goal at this school is to challenge our students. And you have demonstrated that you excel at multiple choice. You never miss a question. Ever. On any test in any subject.â
âAre you accusing me of cheating?â I donât break eye contact. I wonât. I have never cheated in my life.
âOf course not. Iâm simply saying you have an uncanny knack for answering multiple-choice questions. If everything comes easily, how will you ever learn?â
I barely hold back my eye roll. Annie wouldnât approve. She tells me to roll them as much as I possibly can and makes me tell her when Iâm rolling them at her. But Annie doesnât understand. Sheâs not sick all the time, doesnât have these thoughts bouncing around in her skull making her crazy. She doesnât feel like the bottom has just dropped out of the room, like she canât quite get enough air to breathe. I do, ever since we came here. Iâm crazy. But I am not a cheater.
âFine. Whatever.â I stomp back to my seat, my stupid plaid skirt swishing. The girl I share a table with, Eden, scowls. There are only five of us in the thirteen-year-oldsâ class. I donât get to know them. I donât want to. I wish I had classes with Annie.
âStop being so angry all the time,â she whispers. âItâs distracting.â
âWhy do you care?â I hiss. âIâm not mad at you!â
âNo, but itâs . . . I donât like feeling that way. Just calm down.â
Everyone here is insane. I am the insanest of the insane. Iâm going to run away tonight. Iâm sick of the way the staff stares at me like theyâre seeing straight into my head, and Iâm sick of the bizarre classes theyâve âdesignedâ specially for me that have me picking stocks instead of learning math, and practicing self-defense instead of gym. And I am so sick of feeling sick all the time.
But Annie is happy. She loves her staff mentor, Clarice, and the loads of braille texts and the pamphlets of information from the doctor I have to read out loud to her over and over again. Sheâs bonded with Eden and they hang out constantly; youâd think they were sisters. Sheâll be happier here without me dragging her down. Maybe Eden is rightâmaybe I am so angry that other people can actually