hungry pair ate in companionable silence for a few minutes. James crunched through the thin-sliced ham and crisp toast until his empty stomach began to feel pleasantly full, and his mind returned to the three objectives heâd had for the day.
First, find some breakfast. Done.
Second, find Louisa and set a wedding date. The sooner, the better.
Third, find Lord Oliver and get his approval for the wedding date and marriage settlements.
He felt a bit queasy all of a sudden. He wondered if heâd eaten too quickly.
Still in silence, he sipped at a cup of coffee until he felt more settled. He took a deep breath.
âWhere is Louisa this morning?â
âHmm?â Julia looked up from intently slathering an ungodly amount of butter on a piece of toast. âOh, I expect sheâs in the library. Or maybe up with the children, if Mamaâs not up there. Or maybe they are all visiting the new calf. Itâs sure to be one of those.â She dimpled at him. âYou see, I do not do everything by any means. Or know everything about this house.â
James nodded his acceptance, not quite able to respond to her smile. âWould you show me the way to Louisa, once you are done eating? I havenât quite gotten my bearings in the house yet.â
Julia stood up so quickly that James heard the thump of her knees banging against the underside of the table. She winced, but replied, âYes, sorry, letâs go. I didnât mean to eat so much and keep you waiting.â
âNo need for injury,â James assured her, the urge to laugh returning again. âPlease finish your toast. In fact, try these preserves as wellâthey are delicious.â
That was all the persuasion Julia required to sit back down and resume her meal. âMmm,â she agreed. âYouâre right, the cookâs got a knack with blueberries.â
James looked down at his own plate again, but the food didnât appeal to him anymore. It had been delicious, and he had been very hungry. But now, his insides roiled, and he wasnât sure why.
So, with no food to occupy him, he watched Julia.
She didnât notice his gaze, so single-mindedly was she eating. Her light hair was pulling out of its pins, and with curls around her face, she looked very young and untroubled. Now that he knew the breadth of her responsibility in the household, he could hardly believe that she appeared so carefree, or that she and Louisa were virtually the same age.
As he watched, he felt that warmth tickle through his body as it had the day before. She really was lovely, despite her untidy hairâor maybe even, really, because of it. And she was so unexpected .
He suddenly wanted to touch her neck, or smell her hair, or drop a kiss onto those full lips. If he only could get that blasted toast away from her for a few seconds, to draw her attention. His hand even began to reach toward her as if of its own volition, and he forced it to pick up a fork and toy with that instead. But he wanted to grab her up and kiss her until she forgot all about her breakfast. He wanted to learn all about her. He wanted to . . .
He mentally drew himself up with a start as he realized what he was thinking. What on earth was he doing, getting heated up about a young woman who hadnât even made her debut yet? And, more importantly, with an intelligent, elegant, would-never-talk-with-her-mouthfull fiancée waiting for him somewhere in this rabbit warren of a house, too.
He quickly shuttered his face, annoyed with himself. Honestly, had he taken leave of his senses to let this friendly, chattery ( donât forget beautiful , his treacherous brain added) girl get to him in that way?
He might well have, at that. But he wouldnât let it happen again. Couldnât he talk to her without thinking of her as a woman? He simply had to, while he was staying in her home. He couldnât make herâor Louisa, for that matterâfeel