music, and her perfume wafted toward him again, enticing. âWe have both grown up since we saw each other last. Itâs funny, Lady Hardison and I were just talking about that earlier, in the garden. About how part of growing up is learning who weâre meant to be.â
âAnd who are you meant to be, do you think, Eliza?â Matthew could hardly feel his feet crossing the floor. This afternoonâs confession to Dexter had gone better than heâd ever hoped, and Elizaâs offer of a truce had stripped away another source of tension he hadnât recognized until its absence. Now the dance seemed charmed, the night itself seemed charmed. Everything in the world felt promising.
âThatâs just the thing,â she said, flicking a glance at him then quickly looking away once more. He tightened his hold at her waist just a fraction, then reminded himself she was Dexterâs cousin, and loosened his fingers again. âI donât quite know who Iâm meant to be. Charlotte says itâs time I found out.â
âLady Hardison is wise beyond her years, Iâve always thought. You should follow her advice.â He thought that Charlotte would make an excellent role model for Eliza: beautiful, unassuming, ladylike and comfortable in the role of administering a large, if unconventional, estate. Sheâd always been lovely and gracious, even as a young widow, but since marrying Dexter sheâd gained a whole new, vibrant energy. The glow of impending motherhood made her even more appealing. She was everything a woman should be.
âOh, I intend to,â Eliza assured him with a smile. âThatâs part of why I sought you out.â
âIt is? Did she suggest any particular course of action?â His brain misfired at the sudden influx of ideas about possible courses of action Eliza might take with him. None of them were appropriate for him to contemplate taking with Baron Hardisonâs maiden cousin. In fact, none of them were appropriate to think about in relationship to
any
maiden. He used the physics of the next turn to swing Eliza a little wider than necessary, putting another few inches of propriety between their swaying bodies.
Eliza shook her head. âIt wasnât really that sort of talk. Well, she did, but that wasnât the important part. The main thing is she made me see that Iâve cast myself in a certain role for most of my life, but that role is still a product of the expectations placed on me. Charlotte said I should find a way to escape those preconceptions about myself. Allow my life to take its natural course.â
âLady Hardison is a perfect example of that right now, I dare say. I gather she did some sort of government work prior to marrying Dexter, but having seen her then and now, I donât think anybody could argue with how well this more natural role agrees with her. Sheâs clearly much happier.â
Eliza looked taken aback for a moment, making Matthew wonder if heâd inadvertently said something offensive. Then she coughed, sounding almost as though she were choking, but waved him off with a satin-gloved hand when he asked if sheâd like to sit down. In a moment, with a slightly strained expression, she spoke again.
âYou know, youâre absolutely right. It was so foolish of me to struggle against my nature all this time. All that talk of monographs and so forth. Itâs time I stepped forward and accepted the cards destiny so clearly wants to deal me. If I do, will you congratulate me, Matthew?â
âCon-congratulate you?â He could tell she was being oblique and had an uneasy feeling he ought to be aware of her meaning. How had he lost track of the conversation so quickly and thoroughly? âI suppose so. Itâs not every day a young woman reaches out to grasp her destiny, is it? Congratulations for . . . your new endeavor.â
âOh, I didnât mean