married!” I exclaimed over the phone after Sadie announced that
Ace had proposed.
“Yes, I am!”
Sadie’s voice came back equally excited.
“When did
this happen?” I asked, not that I was surprised. I had been expecting it for a
while now. Ace was head over heels in love with my sister, and she felt the
same way about him.
“Last
night,” she said. “I was completely surprised.” I guess she was the only one
who hadn’t seen it coming.
“Well, tell
me how he did it,” I urged her to spill the details of his proposal, and she
did. I listened raptly as she told me all about his quiet, but still very
romantic proposal in the music room of their house. It was so sweet and sounded
like it had been the perfect moment for them, even if others might have thought
it understated or too casual and informal. As romantic as grand gestures and
extravagant and elaborate proposals could be, Sadie didn’t need that.
She’d been
through a lot with the loss of her first love and the child she’d been carrying
at the time. She’d been engaged then, and that loss still weighed on her. Ace
was her rock. He showed her how to really live again and to love and trust
again. I was so happy for her, even though my chest ached with longing.
I wanted to
know what it felt like to love and be loved like that.
“Anyways,
Jax is throwing us an engagement party next weekend. I want to make sure you’ll
be there.”
“Of course,”
I promised her. I wouldn’t miss it for anything.
“Okay good,
now tell me how you’re doing. Classes still going good?”
“Yeah. I’m
still really enjoying my Lit class. Mathematical Reasoning is really boring,
but I’m doing alright in there, and I don’t think the rest of my classes will
be too big of a struggle if I stay on top of my reading.”
The first
three weeks of classes had gone by, and I was proud of myself for how well I
was managing. I’d already written my first college paper, not that it was a
real challenging one, but still it was an accomplishment. I had my first big
test coming up though. It made me a little nervous since math wasn’t my best
subject, but I was confident I would do alright.
“That’s
good, and you’re getting out and having fun too, right?”
“Yeah, I
am.”
“Just not
too much fun.” I knew Sadie still worried, but I wanted to put her at ease.
“No Mom,
just the right amount of safe fun,” I told her, and it was true. I was still
spending most of my time with Jillian, Dawn, Heidi, Derek and Leland, or some
combination of that group, but I’d avoided anymore parties like that first one.
Mostly we just hung around campus and ate meals together. I’d made a few other
friends in the dorm and in my classes as well. I was even starting to think
that Leland had a slight crush on me. I just hadn’t figured out how I felt
about that.
Every time
I tried to imagine kissing him, the image always shifted in my mind and I found
myself looking into a different and more alluring set of blue eyes. It didn’t
help any that those same blue eyes stared back at me from the poster on my wall,
and had been wreaking even more havoc on my thoughts since he gave me a ride
from the hospital.
“Good,” Sadie
laughed softly, and then her tone changed. “Speaking of Mom, have you talked to
her or Dad lately?”
“I’ve talked
to Dad a few times, briefly. You know how he is, always busy. I guess Mom’s
been really busy too. I’ve tried calling her a couple times, but haven’t been
able to reach her. I left her a message, but I haven’t heard from her yet.
She’s probably stressed with trying to keep a positive spin on the divorce and
all that. You know how much image means to her.”
“Yeah, what
about Cait and Leila?” She asked about our other sisters.
“We text
every once in a while. They seem to be handling the divorce fine, going on with
their lives.” The twins always had each other. Because of that, they’d always
been more independent from