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Authors: Nileyah Mary Rose
plan to get rid of it so you could have your life back. And I cannot be sneaking you back and forth to my room knowing you’re still pregnant. It just wouldn’t work.”
I inhaled and exhaled as my heart ached.
“I understand and I know you have my best interest at heart. I thank you for letting me stay at your house, knowing it wasn’t easy sneaking me back and forth. But I really wish you would rejoice with me for this decision I’ve made for myself and let me stay with you for a few weeks, at least to get more money for my apartment, please,” I pleaded, with the hope that my little speech had somehow convinced her.
“Sorry I can’t,” she said as I slowly took a gaze at her not knowing what else to say.
She looked hurt. I was unsure if her pain was caused from my betrayal or because she was making a decision to kick me out. I accepted her decision not wanting to make it more painful than it already was.
“Thank you,” I said as I slowly got out of the car and watched my best friend zoom past me without looking back as I stood at that location for over an hour hoping she would come back. She never returned so a motel was my next option which didn’t go as bad as I thought. I felt a little free living on my own without having to hide when I hear a voice that wasn’t from Kira. I became a workaholic coming in and out from my motel room without having to watch my back. I knew I needed a stable place before I gave birth, but working so much did not allow me to focus on getting a place. All I could focus on was buying baby clothes when I found out I was having a baby girl and thought about naming her after my late grandmother Ella.
I worked nine months thinking she was not coming any time soon until my water broke at work. I thought I peed on myself until it hit me out of nowhere as the sharp pain brought me down to my knees.
“Oh my God, her water just broke,” a customer said as all the employees and managers rushed to me at once.
“Call the ambulance,” my manager said as one of the employees ran to the phone and immediately dialed 911.
I stayed down with my hands on my stomach screaming as the pain spread throughout my body. I thought my baby and I was going to die because I had no idea how labor felt. My mother told me nothing; instead she would drink her life away and expect me to know it all. I didn’t expect that having a baby would feel this bad, hell I didn’t know how it was supposed to feel, because I was told by no one. All I heard was giving birth was a beautiful feeling. But there was nothing beautiful with the pain that constantly paralyzed my body. I was surrounded by my customers, employees and managers who did nothing but say, “Hang in there, the ambulance is almost here.”
My mouth was full without words; but pain as I shrieked and screamed but the pain didn’t decrease. Once the ambulance came, they rushed me to the hospital as they got me ready for labor. My life flashed before my eyes when I started to push. I tried pushing slowly so my baby wouldn’t be harmed and yet I was in great pain that no words could describe.
“Ma’am you have to push as hard as you can please.”
“I can’t…” I screamed feeling the pain all over me thinking this is the end of me.
“You have to for the sake of your child.”
Hearing that helped convince me to keep pushing and ignore the pain I was feeling. I kept pushing as hard as I could, the pain was unbearable, the tension in the room was too much to handle but I kept going for my child. My eyes opened wide as I froze feeling something forcing its way out of my vagina.
“What’s going on?” I screamed with pain, “Is my baby ok?”
“Relax ma’am, your baby is almost here, take a deep breath and push.”
I did as the doctor ordered and kept pushing until she came completely out. The sound of her voice soothed my heart as I passed out without getting the chance to see and hold my child I just gave birth to. I woke up
I inhaled and exhaled as my heart ached.
“I understand and I know you have my best interest at heart. I thank you for letting me stay at your house, knowing it wasn’t easy sneaking me back and forth. But I really wish you would rejoice with me for this decision I’ve made for myself and let me stay with you for a few weeks, at least to get more money for my apartment, please,” I pleaded, with the hope that my little speech had somehow convinced her.
“Sorry I can’t,” she said as I slowly took a gaze at her not knowing what else to say.
She looked hurt. I was unsure if her pain was caused from my betrayal or because she was making a decision to kick me out. I accepted her decision not wanting to make it more painful than it already was.
“Thank you,” I said as I slowly got out of the car and watched my best friend zoom past me without looking back as I stood at that location for over an hour hoping she would come back. She never returned so a motel was my next option which didn’t go as bad as I thought. I felt a little free living on my own without having to hide when I hear a voice that wasn’t from Kira. I became a workaholic coming in and out from my motel room without having to watch my back. I knew I needed a stable place before I gave birth, but working so much did not allow me to focus on getting a place. All I could focus on was buying baby clothes when I found out I was having a baby girl and thought about naming her after my late grandmother Ella.
I worked nine months thinking she was not coming any time soon until my water broke at work. I thought I peed on myself until it hit me out of nowhere as the sharp pain brought me down to my knees.
“Oh my God, her water just broke,” a customer said as all the employees and managers rushed to me at once.
“Call the ambulance,” my manager said as one of the employees ran to the phone and immediately dialed 911.
I stayed down with my hands on my stomach screaming as the pain spread throughout my body. I thought my baby and I was going to die because I had no idea how labor felt. My mother told me nothing; instead she would drink her life away and expect me to know it all. I didn’t expect that having a baby would feel this bad, hell I didn’t know how it was supposed to feel, because I was told by no one. All I heard was giving birth was a beautiful feeling. But there was nothing beautiful with the pain that constantly paralyzed my body. I was surrounded by my customers, employees and managers who did nothing but say, “Hang in there, the ambulance is almost here.”
My mouth was full without words; but pain as I shrieked and screamed but the pain didn’t decrease. Once the ambulance came, they rushed me to the hospital as they got me ready for labor. My life flashed before my eyes when I started to push. I tried pushing slowly so my baby wouldn’t be harmed and yet I was in great pain that no words could describe.
“Ma’am you have to push as hard as you can please.”
“I can’t…” I screamed feeling the pain all over me thinking this is the end of me.
“You have to for the sake of your child.”
Hearing that helped convince me to keep pushing and ignore the pain I was feeling. I kept pushing as hard as I could, the pain was unbearable, the tension in the room was too much to handle but I kept going for my child. My eyes opened wide as I froze feeling something forcing its way out of my vagina.
“What’s going on?” I screamed with pain, “Is my baby ok?”
“Relax ma’am, your baby is almost here, take a deep breath and push.”
I did as the doctor ordered and kept pushing until she came completely out. The sound of her voice soothed my heart as I passed out without getting the chance to see and hold my child I just gave birth to. I woke up