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even acknowledge the fact that one another still exist. In a way I am kind of thankful to my experiences with Trey. Because if I didn’t experience that with him, I would still be scared to find my own way.
                  My career has definitely sky rocketed right to the place I always dreamed of. Unfortunately, my love life is somewhat nonexistent at the moment. It’s been hard as hell for me to really give any man a real chance to get close to me. After Trey, I created this defensive wall that is damn near impenetrable. I have actually met some pretty nice guys after Trey, but they all look the same to me always about themselves. All they want to know is what you can do for them. I made up in my mind a long time ago to never deal with a selfish man ever again. I am not a selfish woman, and there is no place in my life for a selfish man. I guess I don’t really understand where the roles of men and women have changed so much. Now these fools are looking for a woman to take care of them. They want you to be their mother, lover, cook, freak, and maid. Yes, I understand doing all of that as a wife, but if you don’t have a ring on, why should they get all that time and effort. In today’s world, women are very independent. We have our own money and status, so we really don’t need men for much. So my attitude is real whatever towards any man who comes at me with bullshit. I don’t have time to play games with anyone. My time I consider to be too precious to waste on anybody not really worth it. Right now my mind set is so different than a lot of these other chicks out here. I’m strictly about my money and business. And if anyone doesn’t like it they can remove themselves immediately. Some of the men I dated after Trey didn’t really seem to understand me. Or maybe they got frustrated because they can’t figure me out as quickly as they would have liked too. I’m not the chick who will hound you. If you act like you don’t care then please believe I most definitely don’t give a fuck. I am not the one who feels like I need a man to make me happy anymore. I’ve learned that if you can’t be happy with just yourself then you can’t really expect to be happy with anyone else. A relationship is so much work, and you really have to be ready for it. Right now I can admit I am not ready. But I might be open to it if the right man comes along. If he really wants me he will have to put in work. My focus is solely on Jasmine. All I am concerned about right now is finding out who Jasmine is. Now here I am in New York City, hoping that this city will bring me the fulfillment and happiness that I have been searching for.
                  I snapped out of my trance as I saw the row before me begin to collect their things. I didn’t even notice the plane had landed, because I was completely lost in my own thoughts. I stopped the music playing on my Ipad, and began to collect all my things. I opened my purse and touched up my makeup. I brushed my hair which flowed just past my shoulders. I had a wispy bang that fell into my eyes. I know in a city like this first appearances can mean everything. You never really know who you could run into so always be prepared. Besides it’s a part of my job to maintain my appearance and connections. I couldn’t help but feel a little bit uneasy knowing I’m living in the same city as my ex. I’m quite sure he has no idea I’m even here. My nerves were trying to get the best of me again as I began thinking of the chances of me running into him. In a way I wanted to see him, and tell him I finally got my dream job over at Vibe . It’s crazy to think about how so much time has passed. It still feels strange knowing he isn’t a part of my life anymore. But then I thought about the actual chances of me running into him in a huge city like this is was really slim to none. My curiosity was trying to get the best of me. So I shook off my nervousness grabbed my purse