him dead.â She stopped talking.
âGas?â Ben asked quietly.
Marie shook her head. âI turned off the gas outside every day when I left. He went upstairs and got a ⦠a 22 pistol we used to plunk tin cans with. Then he went down to the basement and shot himself in the head.â
âMy Godâ¦â
âI thinkâI know âit was during one of his lucid moments. He went to the basement because it ⦠it would be easierâ¦â
The words choked in her throat, and Ben nodded to tell her he understood. It would be easier to clean up.
Her voice sounded thin and pinched. He saw the tears on her cheeks now. âI shouldâve ⦠remembered that gun. Hidden it away somewhere.â
âIt left him a choice,â Ben said. âYou canât blame yourself for it. He did what he thought was best for himself. And for you.â
She nodded and took a long sip of wine. âIâve told myself that. And I think itâs true.â She sniffed then and shook herself, like shaking off a bad dream. âBut that, in less than a nutshell, is what made me want to get into the field of mental health. To help people like my daddy. So I took the extra courses and got certified. There were no openings at private institutions, but there was one at the state hospital, and I got it.â
âBut a hospital for the criminally insaneâwasnât that a little scary?â
âOh yeah,â Marie said with a little laugh. âIt still is. But as frightening as it is, itâs also fulfilling. These people are sick in a different way, but theyâre still sick.â
âAnd mean and violentâsome of them anyway. Like Ronald Miller. I wouldnât turn my back on that guy. Mean as a snake.â
Marie nodded. âMultiple rape. Horrible man. Heâs one of the few that I think belongs in a regular prison. He may be sick, but I donât know if itâs the kind of sick that can be cured.â
âWell, Iâve overheard some scuttlebutt that he may not be here much longer. The docs are starting to believe that heâs faking the whole mentally ill thing, and I think theyâre right. He manipulates people. Just donât ever get yourself alone with him.â
âBelieve me, I donât want to find myself alone with any of them, not even Norman.â
Their steaks came at last, and they both dug in. Talk was minimal as they ate, only an occasional muttered terrific or delicious passing across the table.
When steaks, baked potatoes, and salads were nothing but a satisfying memory, they both sat back and smiled in appreciation of each otherâs appetite. âDessert?â Ben asked.
âNot for a month, at least,â Marie replied, and Ben laughed.
âOkay, coffee then,â he said, and ordered two when the waiter took away the plates. âSo ⦠you looking for another job, or are you planning to stay among our particular crazies for a while?â
âI like the work,â Marie said. âItâs not ideal, butâ¦â
âHow do you like working under Santa?â
âSanta?â She looked confused.
âOur Head Nurse Lindstrom.â
âIâve never heard her called Santa before.â
âThe patients call her that. Because sheâs knows if youâve been sleeping, and she knows if youâre awake. You canât pull the wool over Santaâs eyes. Many have tried, to their peril.â
âPeril is right.â
âWhat, youâve seen an example?â
âA lot of them,â Marie said. âSheâs more Torquemada than Florence Nightingale.â
âThe Spanish Inquisition guy?â
âThatâs the one. She has these little ⦠punishments she doles out, regardless of treatment protocols. For example, you know Warren Russell?â
âThe fat klepto, yeah. Steals anything that isnât nailed