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Monte-Cristo, Capurro’s, Valencia. My mind was reeling. In the colonies – I thought – the evenings must drag on interminably like this. Neurasthenic settlers mulling over their memories and trying to fight back the fear that suddenly grips them, that they will die at the next monsoon.
    My father got up. He said he was tired and had some work to finish that night.
    ‘Are you planning to become a counterfeiter, Chalva?’ asked Marcheret, his voice slurred. ‘Don’t you think, Monsieur Alexandre, that he’s got the face of a forger?’
    ‘Don’t listen to him,’ my father said. He shook hands with Murraille.
    ‘Don’t worry,’ he murmured to him. ‘I’ll take care of all that.’
    ‘I’m relying on you, Chalva.’
    When he came up to say goodbye to me, I said:
    ‘I must go, too. We could walk part of the way together.’
    ‘I’d be delighted.’
    ‘Must you go so soon?’ Sylviane Quimphe asked me.
    ‘If I were you,’ Marcheret quipped, wagging a finger to my father ‘I wouldn’t trust him!’
    Murraille walked us out on to the veranda.
    ‘I look forward to your article,’ he said. ‘Be bold!’
    We walked in silence. He seemed surprised when I turned up the Chemin du Bornage with him rather than going straight on, to the
auberge
. He gave me a furtive glance. Did he recognize me? I wanted to ask him outright, but I remembered how skilled he was at dodging awkward questions. Hadn’t he told me himself one day: ‘I could make a dozen prosecutors throw in the towel’? We passed beneath a street lamp. A few metres farther on, we found ourselves once more in darkness. The only houses I could see looked derelict. The wind rustled in the leaves. Perhaps in the intervening decade he had forgotten that I ever existed. All the plotting and scheming I had done just so that I could walk next to this man . . . I thought of the drawing-room of the ‘Villa Mektoub’, of the faces of Murraille, Marcheret, and Sylviane Quimphe, of Maud Gallas behind the bar, and Grève crossing the garden . . . Every gesture, every word, the moments of panic, the long vigils, the worry during these interminable days. I felt an urge to throw up . . . I had to stop to catch my breath. He turned to me. To his left, another streetlight shrouded him in pale light. He stood motionless, petrified, and I had to stop myself reaching out to touch him, to reassure myself that this was not a dream. As I walked on and I thought back to the walks we used to take in Paris long ago. We would stroll side by side, as we were tonight. In fact in the time we had known each other, this was all we have ever done. Walked, without either of us breaking the silence. It was no different now. After a bend in the path, we came to the gate of the ‘Priory’. I said softly: ‘Beautiful night, isn’t it?’ He replied abstractedly: ‘Yes, a lovely night.’ We were a few yards from the gate and I was waiting for the moment when he would shake hands and take his leave. Then I would watch him disappear into the darkness and stand there, in the middle of the road, in the bewildered state of a man who may just have let slip the chance of a lifetime.
    ‘Well,’ he said, ‘this is where I live.’
    He nodded shyly towards the house which was just visible at the end of the drive. The roof shimmered softly with moonlight.
    ‘Oh? So this is it?’
    ‘Yes.’
    An awkwardness between us. He had probably been trying to hint that we should say goodnight, but saw that I was hesitant.
    ‘It looks like a beautiful house,’ I said, in a confident tone.
    ‘A lovely house, yes.’
    I detected a slight edginess in his voice.
    ‘Did you buy it recently?’
    ‘Yes. I mean no!’ He stammered. He was leaning against the gate and didn’t move.
    ‘ So you’re renting the place?’
    He tried to catch my eye, which I noticed with surprise. He never looked directly at people.
    ‘Yes, I’m renting it.’
    The words were barely audible.
    ‘You probably think I’m