to?â the driver asked as she settled into the backseat.
âBrooklyn Heights,â she said for no reason other than that sheâd sometimes strolled at night on the wide promenade, the radiant gleam of the Manhattan skyline, the great bridge shimmering above the dividing river.
On the Brooklyn Bridge, she glanced out over the harbor, the distant green of Lady Liberty, her torch hefted high. She tried to imagine herself as an immigrant, new to the country, carrying nothing but a single suitcase and some hopeful vision of the future. She labored to find something hopeful too, but her past reached for her like a bony hand thrust up from the ground, and she felt only the dreadful opposite of nostalgia, memory itself a haunted house.
âAnyplace in particular you want to be dropped off?â the driver asked as he turned off the ramp that led to Brooklyn Heights.
âJust near the river.â
The cab came to a halt on Columbia Heights Street. Sara paid the driver and got out and stood, suitcase in hand, facing the river until she recalled a small hotel whose dark little cabaret room sheâd once worked.
It was called the Jefferson, and the cabaret room was now just a bar off the lobby. Still, it was a place she knew and so she decided to check in for the night. The man behind the desk asked if she had a reservation. She told him that she hadnât.
âVery well,â he said a little sadly, as if in recognition that a hotel where a person could just walk in off the street and get a room was a second-rate hotel, and so he must be second-rate too. âThe roomâs on the fifth floor.â He gave her the key and tapped a brass bell.
A bellhop appeared. He grabbed her suitcase. âThis way.â
The bellhop wore a little round cap with a strap beneath the chin, the kind she remembered on bellhops in movies from the forties, and suddenly she felt the sweet, romantic glow of those old films turn sour in her mind. Their promise of a big happy ending was no more than a cruel joke, a Hollywood fantasy in which the ones who hurt you got what they deserved.
EDDIE
As he pulled up to the curb in front of Tonyâs house, Eddie was relieved to see that Saraâs red Explorer was the only vehicle in the driveway. He had not wanted to find some strange car parked there. He knew what that might mean, that there was a guy in Tonyâs house, in bed with Tonyâs wife. He didnât want to think about this because he liked Sara. Sheâd always been nice to him and he didnât want to imagine that she was doing the wrong thing now, something he didnât want to tell Tony, though he knew heâd have to.
He got out of the car, walked to the front door, and knocked lightly.
No answer.
He knocked again.
Still no answer.
He peered through the narrow window in the door. Beyond it, he could see the living room, but it didnât look like a room anyone really lived in. It looked like a picture in one of those magazines his mother used to buy at the corner drugstore, rich peopleâs homes, always with gleaming floors and fresh flowers, and this feeling that no one really lived there.
He inserted the key but didnât turn it. It was someone elseâs house, and he felt a biting reluctance to go inside. More, it was a womanâs house, a woman alone, if she were there at all. What if he came upon her when she was . . . doing something women do. He knew Tony had given him permission to go inside, even ordered him to do it. Still, he couldnât. Even if Tonyâs wife werenât there, he might see her things lying around, her panties, a bra, and if you saw those things, the intimate apparel of another manâs wife, didnât that mean that you knew too much about her, because only Tony should see such things, touch them. He shook his head. No, he would not go inside the house.
And so he stepped off the porch and walked to the back of the house, moving along the