to the floor.
She winced, knowing full well Noel was about to unleash on her.
“Abby,” he sighed. He was lying down again, the heels of his palms pushing hard into his brow bones.
After a moment of silence she released the cringe to her spine. It looked like she was going to get a pass this time. He hated when she used her powers to ease her anger and was usually pretty verbal about it. Anger and magical powers hadn’t worked out so great for her in the past.
Her parents were partly to blame for that. Her so-called sperm donor seduced her mother. She was a good witch and he was an evil warlock. His initial plan was to keep Abby for himself and raise her evil. Having the ability to perform magic for both white and black sides meant Abby could block spells from witches and warlocks alike. A magical hybrid – daddy’s perfect little bodyguard.
Her mother caught on to the scheme before she was born and ran, casting protection spells to shadow their locations. Abby got only three years with her mother before the fire. She really wished she had a drawing of her. All that was left was a distorted haze. No matter how many times she tried to wipe the image clean, a smear always remained, seemingly worse than the one before. Sort of like the black spots that develop on the surface of really old mirrors. Eventually, there’s nothing left to see anymore.
She did remember loving her mother though. She was completely enthralled by her ability to manipulate the natural elements. Wind was always Abby’s favorite to watch. Who needed toys when your mother could lift the most mundane of objects, like pinecones, twirl them around in the air and smash them about for you? Or lift the petals from flowers and swirl them around to make pictures or patterns.
She still had the memories though, and for that she was thankful. And for the powers she passed down to her.
But she also inherited something from the other gene giver. The power of pyrokinesis. She could easily create and control a fire within her own hands. Too easily. There was something different about this power. She could feel it inside her. It was warm and soothing and stress relieving. It usually came out in a fit of rage and actually calmed her anger. But it also did something else.
She’s never meant to use the power on purpose, but when it came out, she could feel herself changing inside. More like yearning – for her to use it again, and again. Like something within her was addicted and needed a fix.
That something came out of her shortly after she left the school. Her memory had long faded and she couldn’t remember what happened to bring it on, only that it suffocated her. The warm pressure within her topped out – and then she snapped.
The physical change was immediate. Normally, her eyes flashed bright white when she used her good powers, like wind manipulation. This time, her eyes flashed black and the colors disappeared from her vision. During this moment she had an out of body experience. She felt pushed to the back of her body, as if some other entity within her was trying to take over. She could feel Noel grip her face, hear his distorted voice and see the panic in his eyes as he looked deep into hers, but she wasn’t really in them anymore. Her view had minimized, condensed to the smallest circle. A tiny light in the darkness. She felt stuffed and cramped.
It was when she heard him yelling for her to come back to him that she felt a surge build within her. He wasn’t her husband at the time, but she felt an odd connection to him. She didn’t want to stay where she was, but back where he was. She lunged desperately toward the light. Like a rubber band, she snapped back into her body. Everything was clear again. Her sight was full colorful vision and her hearing was no longer muffled. And the blackness in her eyes retreated as quickly as it came.
She didn’t know it then, but this was the first time Abby had met the entity within her attached to
Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni