drew back. "Why not?"
"Because I'm a cop, Carly. And I won't tell them what you did, but I can't lie about it under oath."
"Right. Of course." I wanted to kick myself. If only I'd told the truth about what happened. That I did knowingly deliver the illegal medications that one time but I didn't know what else to do. Surely the legal system would make some allowance. Grant me immunity or whatever the hell. But now I'd lied to the cops and made Sam do the same. Mitchell and whoever he worked for could get away with it, all because I was too scared to come clean.
"Hey," Sam said, slinging an arm around my shoulder. "It's going to be okay. Things will work out. This investigation is only beginning. And, if we're right and this is related to a bigger enterprise, there will be more evidence. Stronger evidence."
I thought about telling him what I'd seen in the warehouse, but I was tired and didn’t want to admit to yet another lie. I needed more information. A way to make this right for all of us.
"Why don't you lie down. Try to get some sleep."
"Okay."
We looked at each other but there was no heat or even the building connection in it. The issues weighing on both of us, and the lies hiding within me made a wall between us, one I wasn't sure could be scaled without a lot of work, and for the moment I was too exhausted to bother.
So I lay back and rolled onto my side facing away from him. I l closed my eyes and willed sleep to come while I went over my plan and added some urgency to it.
Sam sat there for a long time, I could practically feel him wanting to touch me or say something, but he didn't. As I drifted off into a nightmare-riddled sleep he got up and left the bedroom.
Chapter Five
The next morning we went through the motions of getting ready for the day together, but the conversation was only short necessary words about breakfast and bathroom order. There was no talk of sharing a shower this time.
Sam had to go into work for a few hours but wouldn't be gone all day. He told me we could talk more when he got back. I agreed, thinking I'd have a lot more to tell him than he expected. I charged my cell phone with a charger that the nice officer who'd brought my clothes had thoughtfully included.
Sam looked down at it on the kitchen counter by the only outlet that was free. "You expecting a call from someone?"
"Not really. But I figured while you're gone I can check my messages and email. It's been a couple days."
"You kids and your technology," he quipped.
"Pipe down old man." I grinned, my insides warming from that tiny bit of normalcy. But the moment passed and I tensed up as Sam grabbed his keys.
"Call me if you need anything, but like I said, I'll be back soon."
"Okay." I stood up and went over to the sink to start washing breakfast dishes.
"I like seeing you in my kitchen," he said lowly.
I looked over my shoulder. "What was that?"
"Nothing. See you in a few hours."
He left and I sighed as the door shut behind him. Trying to stay calm, I washed and dried the dishes and then put them away. I tidied up the few out-of-place things and then looked at the clock. He'd been gone for fifteen minutes. Should be long enough .
I gathered my things and my phone, and headed out the back door again. I hopped in Anna's car and sent her a text that I'd have it back to her later, and drove off.
When I got close to the warehouse we'd left the day before, I drove around for a little while to get a better sense of the area. I wasn't sure what I was looking for, but I hoped something would become apparent.
Luckily and unfortunately, something did rather quickly. A few streets over, right by the expressway overpass I saw the woman I'd handed that damn box of pills to. She was standing by a green SUV, talking to a man whose face was almost completely hidden behind dark glasses and a baseball cap. From their casual posture and the smile on the woman's face I knew they weren't strangers. I pulled into a space and cut the