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front of him, he looked at me skeptically.
    "Did you poison them?"
    Rolling my eyes, "no. I didn't. I just figured I'd butter you up before we talked."
    "If you're buttering can you at least make me some toast?"
    I tried to unsuccessfully hold back a laugh, as I popped two slices of bread into the toaster.
    "Jack, we're not good for one another. I think that's evident. I don't know if it boils down to it being the wrong time or what, but it's not good for either of us. I think for both our sakes that we just end it before it goes any further."
    His face showed no emotion whatsoever. He shrugged indifferently and continued eating his eggs. I buttered his fucking toast and put it in front of him. He dripped egg yolk into his beard and I turned to hide the smug look on my face. I wanted to see how long it took before he realized it. I was also ready for him to vacate.
     
    Jack
     
    I had no idea what her fucking problem was this morning. Ever since I got in the shower with her this morning hoping to get lucky again, she's been acting like a raging bitch. This is the exact reason I didn't do the whole relationship thing. Her guard was back up and I wasn't going to put in the time to try and knock it down for some stellar sex. I'd have to get it elsewhere.
    I put the plate in the sink and walked into the bedroom to retrieve my stuff and get dressed, so I could get out of here. I'd be lying if I didn't say it hurt a little walking out of her life again.
    She stood arms crossed with her back up against the counter. I went and kissed the top of her head. "Take care of yourself, Char."
    She turned her head away from me.
    I walked out the door and out of her life.
     
    Three months later...
     
    After the last time we had sex, we made it about a week before we ended up back in bed. We had this gravitational pull toward one another. No matter how much we tried to fight it, it was futile. No girl did it for me like she did. We agreed to a strict benefits only thing. It became a once or twice a week thing. It had become a familiar, comfort thing for both of us. The emotion was removed completely. It was just two people with awesome chemistry using each other.
    Sure, we were friends and I gave a shit about her. But, the reality was we were both trying to heal. She was a security blanket in a way. She never expected much, but I could tell it was starting to take its toll on her. I had just pulled out. She scooted up and covered herself with the sheet. A sheen of sweat covering her face. She was so fucking beautiful. She climbed out of bed and dressed in a hurry. It wasn't out of the norm, but something felt off. I thought back to the past few days to see if I could think of anything I'd done wrong. My mind came up empty.
    I walked with her into the entryway, where she slid on her heels and grabbed her bag. She looked intently at me. She bit her lip and seemed to be hesitating.
    "So, you'll be relieved to know I think it's time that I move on and find a boyfriend."
    I felt a little blindsided, but I knew it was only a matter of time before she decided she needed more.
    "I've enjoyed the time we spent together, but I need something with stability. Something with a future. As it is, we rarely see each other, and when we do it's just for sex. Don't get me wrong, it's been great, but I need more. I spend way too many nights alone and you're not ready to commit, which leaves us at an impasse."
    "I guess you're right," I said, trying to hide my hurt. I'd spent the past three months trying to open myself up to the idea. It wasn't an overnight process. The next woman I committed to was going to be my future wife. No more games. If she was ready to move on, I needed to let her.
    "Take care of yourself, Jack." She kissed my cheek and walked out the door and out of my life. Again.
    Words were lodged in my throat, refusing to come out. Part of me wanted to chase her out the door, but the other part knew I needed to let her go.
    I spent weeks trying to