reserved, haughty and formal. So aloof, so icy, so cold, so indifferent. Gone now were the stiff, crisp, white, high-collared shirtwaist, closed by a brooch at the throat, the severe, ankle-length black dress, the dark stockings, the high, soft, black shoes, coming above the ankle, buttoned closed. She was reduced now, fleeing in the storm, naked, her hair unbound, outside civilization, to her female essentials, whose nature she had refused to recognize, whose meaning she had striven to suppress, whose destiny she had denied.
âHello!â I called. âWhere are you?â Surely she was risking illness in such weather. âI mean you no harm!â
I wondered if she were mad, but I was somehow sure she was not. From where had she been brought? What was her purpose here?
âHello!â I called.
There was no answer. Only the wind and the rain.
She has disobeyed, hasnât she, I thought. That will require discipline. Then I thought, no, it is appropriate, now, that she disobey. It is fitting, and expected. She can be taught later.
The switch, the riding crop, the whip, cords, suitable feedings, I thought, can reform, and make more precise, her behavior.
Then I dismissed such thoughts, for they were improper, and radically inappropriate. My heart went out to the shivering waif.
âHello!â I called, again, loudly, into the darkness.
âHello!â I heard, from several yards away, out toward the cliffs and beach. A manâs voice.
I hurried toward the voice. âGavin,â I cried, âis that you?â
âAye,â he responded. He was carrying a lantern.
âDid you see her?â I cried.
âAye!â he said. âShe ran toward the cliffs.â
We came within a few feet of one another.
âWho is she?â asked Gavin.
âI donât know,â I said. âWe must find her. What are you doing here, this late, in the storm?â
He looked away, angrily, confused.
âDid you want to talk to me?â I asked.
âNo,â he said, surlily.
âWhy are you here, about Hill House?â I asked.
He did not respond.
âYou were spying on me,â I said. âWhy?â
âI caught you now,â he said. âGoing out to the beach! To make more mischief. Who is the girl?â
âI donât know,â I said, angrily. âAnd I assure you I am not in the habit of busying myself with the making of idle mischief, nor of taking trips to the beach in the dark, in the middle of storms.â
He, at least, had dressed for the weather.
âIt is you, I note,â I said, âwhom I find here in the dark.â
âYou are not the fooler?â said Gavin.
âNo,â I said. âAnd if there is a fooler here, it is surely you, not I.â
In a flash of lightning the heath toward us, between us, who were near Hill House, and the cliffs, was suddenly, brightly illuminated.
We saw no sign of the girl.
âNo hard feelings?â asked Gavin.
âNo,â said I, and we clasped hands, warmly. I put the blanket over my head, to gain what protection I could from the weather. I pulled it out a bit, so my eyes were shielded. I tried to wipe the rain from my eyes with the back of a wet hand.
âShe was running toward the cliffs,â said Gavin.
âThat is dangerous,â I said.
âLetâs find her,â he said. The rain was pouring over the brim of his hat.
Stay back.
âWhy?â asked Gavin.
âWhat?â I called.
âWhy should I stay back?â he asked.
âI didnât say anything,â I called to him.
âIt was the wind then,â said Gavin.
We then, separated by some twenty yards or so, in the downpour, the moon muchly obscured by clouds, Gavin holding up the lantern, the heath brightened intermittently by flashes of lighting, went toward the cliffs.
âThere she is!â cried Gavin, pointing.
The small, white, pathetic figure was crouching