was in my robe, in the kitchen having a cup of tea, when I heard the automatic garage door go up and then the back door open as Dave came in.
âHow did it go?â I asked, my heart beating nervously. The first words weâd said to each other all day.
âGood. It went well.â He nodded. At first a bit stiffly. Heâd worn his Zegna cashmere blazer and the green striped tie Iâd bought for him last Christmas. He looked a little bit like Woody Harrelson, only handsomer, in my view. Then he grinned. âActually, it went really, really well. Iâm starting to think this might work out.â
I ran over and buried myself in his arms.
Did I say that this was my second marriage? For both of us. Daveâs first was with a magazine editor who developed a serious prescription pill problem, and he got custody of the kids. Mine was just a youthful mistake at twenty-one that lasted a year. Weâd both put in a lot to make this one work. And for the most part it had.
âItâs okay. Itâs okay,â he said, patting my shoulders. He could feel me shuddering against him, and I couldnât stop crying. âJeez, Pam mustâve been one hell of a support system . . .â
I couldnât let go of him.
âHey, whatâs going on? This isnât like you, Wend. Look . . .â He stroked my hair. âI know we have to talk. I know I said some things last night. Maybe this meeting was on my mind, I donât know . . .â
âNo, thatâs not it. That doesnât matter.â I looked at him and wiped my eyes. âDave, something happened in the city tonight. You have to listen to me. Iâve stepped into a nightmare.â
CHAPTER FIVE
I didnât know where to begin, so I just blurted it out.
âDave, I shot someone tonight. I killed him.â
âWhat? What do you mean you shot someone, Wendy? What are you talking about?â
âDave, please just listen to me!â
It was jumbled and rambling, and it felt like knives were stabbing me when I got to the part I dreaded most. Which was going up to that room.
âI donât know why I did it, David.â I sat on a stool at the kitchen island holding a tissue, shaking my head. âI was just so angry from the things you said to me last night. Then Pam didnât show up. This guy came up to the bar . . .â
It took everything I had to get the words out. I watched Daveâs face twitch in surprise at first, as he realized what I was telling him, then go blank, maybe waiting for the part when I said I was joking, which never came. Then it simply slackened with the most confused, heartbreaking look.
âDave, I swear to you, nothing really happened between us up there.â I reached out and took his hand. âI give you my word. I stopped it before it really got anywhere. I was just so angry, Davidââ
âYou went up to this guyâs room?â He stared at me shell-shocked, and pulled his hand away. âTo do what? To screw someone, Wendy?â
âSweetheart, I never meant to hurt you.â I latched back onto him, my heart almost falling off a cliff. âMy relationship with you means more to me than anything in the world, and I realize what Iâve done. But thatâs not it! Thatâs not all Iâm trying to tell you, David. Something else happened up there. Something even more important.â
âYou shot someone?â His face screwed up in confusion. âWhat the hell did he do to you, Wendy?â His concern was mixed with anger and accusation. He searched my face and arms as if looking for signs of a struggle.
âNothing. He didnât do anything to me, Dave. The guyâs dead. He was shot. By someone else. Someone else came into the roomâas I was in the bathroom. Freshening up.â
âFreshening up?â This time the edge of accusation in his voice was clear.
âDave, just listen