when I cried out to him and tried to reach for him, he said, âYou have to go back. You have things to do. Iâll see you next time.ââ
To his credit, his eyes didnât take on that bug-eyed, shocked expression that said he thought she was nuts. Instead, he smiled. âI heard that sort of thing can happen.â
âMaybe I dreamed it,â she offered.
âOr maybe it happened,â he said. âI never rule anything out.â
âThanks,â she said, smiling back at him. âThatâs nice of you to say.â
âOh, I wasnât trying to be nice. Seriously, Iâve heard those stories. You never know, huh?â
âYeah.â
They were quiet a moment, looking at each other. Then he cleared his throat. âMmm. This is kind of awkward, but maybe after you get a little better, maybe we could meet for coffee.â
Dumbfounded, she stared at him, gape mouthed, until she realized she must look as if sheâd just been hit in the back of the head with a two-by-four. âCoffee?â
âWhatever.â He shrugged. âHow about you give me a phone number where I can reach you. At the very least, Iâd like to check up on you, see how your recovery is going.â
Oh, that was it, she thought. Her features recovered. It wasnât as if he was asking her out on a date. He was bonded to her by that accident, which probably shook him up. âGod, forgive me,â she said. âIt must be the drugs. I thought you were asking me out on a date. â
There was that smile again. Dazzling. âJust coffee. Something like a date could take as many as two coffees.â Then he laughed. And she laughed.
âIf you donât mind my asking, how old are you?â
âTwenty-nine,â he said. âAnd youâre thirty-nine.â
âHow do you know that?â
âIâve gotten really good at that driverâs license thing,â he said. âSo, when youâre up to coffee?â She nodded. âHow about that phone number?â
That was kind of cool, she thought. That fantasy, though brief, that this drop-dead gorgeous young guy was asking her out, even though she was feeling reallyold, not to mention greasy haired and makeupless. But, he didnât really look all that young. He could even pass for thirty-two.
Thirty-two, Clare? she thought. Get over yourself. The guy wants to have coffee to assure himself that the banged-up heap they pulled out of a wreck was going to be fine. Just fine.
âSure,â she said. âGot a pencil?â
The nurse stuck her head in. âVisiting hours are ending, sir,â she said.
âOkay,â he said. Then to Clare he said, âI thought about badging her so sheâd let me stay longer, but Iâm really not here on official business. And you probably need the rest.â He reached over to the bedside commode where the clipboard and pen sat. Then like a kid, felt-tip poised over the palm of his hand, he said, âShoot.â
She gave him a number and added, âThatâs a cell phone.â
âGood then. So, take it easy and Iâll be in touch.â
Clare nurtured that little fantasy about the younger man for a good twenty-four hours. Then when Maggie dropped by the next day it got wiped away by a bigger matter. âOh, I keep forgetting to tell youâPete Rayburn called me. He heard about the accident and wanted to know if you were all right.â
Clare instantly turned her head away, almost a reflex now. That discomfort, that shame. She wouldnât want anyone to see it in her eyes.
Maggie touched her hair. âDoes Mikeâs death still hurt so much? Even after all these years?â
Clare looked back at her sister. âSometimes at the strangest moment it will come backâa suggestion, aname, like Peteâsâand I remember how much it hurt then. You know?â
âSure.â
âWhat did you tell