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nothing to do with Trevor, and everything to do with me. The last time I'd given myself freely to another man I'd walked away thoroughly pleasured, yet I'd left a big piece of myself in his bed. I'm sure Jesse had no idea that he owned my heart, because he certainly hadn't been looking for that type of connection, but that hadn't stopped me from falling for him.  

    One night was all it had taken.

    I kissed Trevor tenderly on the lips, making sure he felt the true depth of my desire. I was feeling love starved and right now I didn’t care that we were in a public place or that he might be leaving me tomorrow. I just needed an escape, and he was my island. I was tired of being lonely, tired of missing the touch of a man. No one had held me since the night I'd spent with Jesse Montgomery. I was tired of looking at men, expecting them to live up to his legendary status.  

    Since that night, two years ago, his band had taken the music world by storm. Their albums shot to number one, and their concerts sold out all over the world. Jesse had been photographed with countless women, and stories online reported that he was known for having numerous lovers and never settling down. I often laughed at myself for foolishly thinking that I could have been the one to make him happy. I know now that one woman would never be enough for him. Even though we only had one night, that one night has been forever etched in my memory as the one that all other men have to live up to, knowing in my heart that they never will. It was time for me to move on, if only for tonight.  

    “Yes, I'm sure. Let’s go home.”  

    T wo minutes after the apartment door closed we were on the living room floor, locked in a kiss. This was not intended to be an act of love or desire; it was pure desperation on my part. The kiss deepened as he cradled my face in his hands, moaning softly against my lips. I pushed away gently, pulling my sweater over my head, and sat before him in only my bra and skirt. My lips found his and I eased him back against the sofa, straddling his body. His hands moved slowly back and forth over my waist, the tip of his thumbs barely brushing under my breasts. My hips rocked against him, as my fingers fumbled with his zipper, freeing his erection. My breathing quickened as I wrapped my fingers around the hardened flesh, thick and hot with arousal. He pushed me back on the cushions as I buried my hands in his hair and moved my mouth against his, desperate for more, but not finding it. My lips froze in place, my eyes were closed tight, lashes tickling my cheekbones. He'd stopped kissing me and pulled back. I knew then that this night wasn’t going to end as I had planned. I had just put myself out there and made a fool of myself. My eyes opened slowly and found his staring back at me. His dark brown eyes were sad and void of passion, not what I would have expected from someone that had my hand wrapped around his dick. Trevor couldn't go through with this if his heart wasn't in it. He wasn't a love 'em and leave 'em kind of guy, that honor could only go to one man.  

    Funny thing was, even though I had known that about Jesse, I still longed for him, maybe more now than ever before.

    “When do you start?” My question cut across the awkward silence.
     
    “Next week,” he said, softly. “I wanted to tell you earlier, but I didn’t want to ruin our night.” He reached over to grab my hand but I instinctively pulled back, and his eyes squeezed shut in response. “I really didn’t want to do it this way. I need to head down there tomorrow and find a place to live and get settled.” He said, clearing his throat softly before continuing. “See Rhyann, the thing is, I think we should end this. I’m really sorry, but I just need to focus on my new job, and a long distance relationship would just be a distraction I don’t need. I know the timing sucks with you losing your job. I’m sorry it has to be this way.”  

    I had grown