means â¦Â he â¦Â doesnât â¦Â want â¦Â to â¦Â be â¦Â my â¦Â friend,â I said, between little gulps. It felt like my heart was crying. It was going all the way up my throat.
Grandad did something he doesnât often do. He sat down on my bed and gave me a hug. He smelt of mown grass and sweaty armpits. The prickly white stubble on his chin scratched my forehead, but I liked the way he crushed me to his bony chest.
âItâs not too late. Your dog can still be your friend. You just have to be his leader.â
âBut how? Iâve been trying!â
I didnât know what Grandad meant. I really had been trying. And Iâd failed.
âI said leader , not dictator .â
âWhatâs the difference?â
âA good leader is kind.â
I still felt a bit confused, but one thing was clear â my grandfather was hugging me because I was sad and lonely, and he wished I wasnât. That was good enough.
Chapter Twelve
In lots of made-up stories that I read, the problems seem to get solved really quickly. In a make-believe story, I would have woken up the next morning and somehow Ugly would instantly look up to me as his leader. But thatâs not real life.
What happened was this: I woke up the next day feeling calm. I knew I wasnât all alone in trying to get Ugly to like me. Grandad understood my problem, so Iâd ask him to help me.
It was a Sunday morning, a few days back. I had dressed quickly and then gone to have breakfast. Ugly was under the kitchen table. As I walked in, he thumped his tail in a welcoming sort of way.
âMorning, Ugly,â I said. As I bent down to give him a pat, I realised he had probably said hello to me quite a lot of the time, but I was in the habit of only noticing what Ugly did wrong. Maybe I should take more notice of when Ugly did things right. But for the moment, I needed to concentrate on figuring out how to be his leader. After eating my porridge, which Grandad makes for the family every morning, I went down the back to look for Grandad. He was tidying up his tools in the shed.
âHey, Grandad,â I said, âcan you tell me more about how to be Uglyâs leader?â
âSure thing. You can help me hang these tools on the shadow board. Weâll talk as we work.â
I started to pass Grandad tools as he asked for them. He hung them on hooks on a pegboard heâd built on the wall.
âFirst off,â said Grandad, âif youâre the one who looks after your dog, he will naturally see you as the important one. Looking after means feeding, grooming, walking, playing and training.â
âI already do a bit of that,â I started to say.
âListen up,â said Grandad. âItâs the same old story for lots of youngsters. Itâs the mum who does most of the hard yakka.â
âSo?â
âSo, unless Ugly sees you doing most of the work, this talk of ours is going to be pointless. Pass that hammer, please.â
To be honest, the word âworkâ sounded boring. Having to do jobs, even stuff like learning tables, at a certain time every single day isnât my thing. Mums are good at it, not kids.
âIâve got school and all that. Iâm pretty busy,â I said.
âAre you fair dinkum?â Grandad was just standing there staring at me with his eyes all big. He snorted in a cross way and pointed at the door. âIf youâre busy, what does that make your poor overworked mum? Out you go! Youâre wasting my time.â
That scared me. I really wanted Grandadâs help. I realised I was skating on thin ice.
I held my hands up, like people do in films when a gun is pointed at them. âKidding! Iâm listening, Grandad. Just tell me what I need to do.â
âFor starters, you should write up a timetable. Youâll have to ask Mum what sort of chores she does for