full of black storm clouds. She couldnât think straight. She wished she could stop shuddering.
I know where Star is. And my parent-dogs. Her gut turned over. Thatâs why I feel so terrible. Itâs grief.
There was a movement at the den entrance. Snapâs muzzle poked inquisitively in, twitching at the stale air.
âMoon?â The Patrol Dog took a few steps into the dimness of the den. âI came to make sure youâre all right. Iâm so sorry about Alpha. About everything.â
Moon opened her jaws to tell Snap she was fine, sheâd be all right, she would lead the Pack as best she could. But all that cameout was a weak, trembling growl.
âMoon?â There was urgency in Snapâs voice now as she lowered her head to touch Moonâs nose with her own. Pulling back, she whined in dismay. âMoon, youâre boiling hot! Youâre sick!â
âIâm not hot,â Moon croaked. âIâm cold, Snap. So cold.â
As soon as she said it, though, she felt a wave of heat, oppressive and unbearable. Iâm on fire. My blood, my hide, everything. Her jaws fell open and her tongue lolled.
âPebble is sick, too.â Snapâs dark eyes were terrified. âHer wounds from yesterday arenât helping.â
Moon made a huge attempt to focus her thoughts, to clear the sticky fog in her head. She knew what Snap was thinking, and why her voice reeked of despair: Sheâs wondering how she can possibly take care of us all. She doesnât know how to cope. . . .
It was strange, thought Moon, but she herself felt very calm. She remembered the terrible battle yesterday: the moment when she had caught the scent of the Earth-Dog, and had known she was going to join her. Perhaps the worst had happened now, and she was no longer capable of being scared.
Or perhaps itâs just the sickness, killing me bit by bit. . . .
It was so hard to care. âSnap,â she whispered. âGet some of those leaves. Fieryâs plants. For Pebble and me. To chew.â
Snap seemed to be relieved to have somethingâanythingâto do. Turning on her haunches, she scrabbled out of the den and raced away. Moon sank back onto her now dirty bed of leaves.
Itâs the end of my Pack. We werenât killed by those coyotes. Weâve been destroyed by an enemy we couldnât even see.
Maybe, Moon thought regretfully, she should have gone with Hunter after all. What use had it been, staying with the sick Pack out of loyalty? It had done her no good. It hadnât helped Snap or Pebble. It hadnât even helped the ones whoâd been sick in the first place.
Perhaps we should have gone while we could. Weâd have saved what was left of our Pack. Was I foolish not to go with Hunter and the others?
Moon closed her eyes, feeling nothing but a heavy sadness. Her head swam dizzily, and for a moment she thought her mind had drifted loose from her body.
Iâm hallucinating, she thought, gazing dully at her Father-Dog. Her Mother-Dog stood at his flank, and Star beside her.
Pack is everything, Moon. Her Father-Dog looked at her kindly. Pack is sticking together. Pack is taking care of every dog. A Pack abandons no dog.
Her Mother-Dog stepped forward, touching Moonâs ear with her nose. If you had left the others to suffer, Moon, you would not have been aPack Dog at all.
âMother-Dog . . .â The sound of her own hoarse voice made Moon blink her eyes open. They felt sticky and sore and hot, and she narrowed them against the sting of the faint light.
There was no sign of Alpha, or Beta, or Star. But another dog stood over her, gently licking her neck fur. A big, reassuring, black-and-brown presence.
âFiery?â she whispered.
âDonât try to talk, Moon. Here. You must try to chew these leaves. And drink. You must drink this water, itâs important.â
She felt Fieryâs strong nose under her foreleg, coaxing and
Dorothy Salisbury Davis, Jerome Ross