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through, it’s the least that I could do.”
                  “You know what, I can’t disagree with you.  What you did to me was pretty traumatic.  I was devastated and completely blindsided.”
                  “I know and that is why I’m going to do whatever I can to make it up to you.”
                  “Okay,” she says, dropping the subject.  She really doesn’t want the conversation to lead to a fight.  She just wants to enjoy what he’s done for her and enjoy the moment.
                  “I’ve really been thinking about everything a lot.  You have pretty much been all I’ve been thinking about lately.  Everything that happened has really opened my eyes to how much you really mean to me.  I promise to spend the rest of my life making it up to you.  The first step is walking down the aisle.  I can’t wait to stand up at the front to the church and watch you walk towards me.  I can’t wait for the moment when I can call you my wife,” Kyle says, filling her glass with champagne.
                  “I can’t wait either,” she says, enjoying the words he’s saying.
                  “I love you so much, Haillee.”
                  “I love you, too.”
                  She looks across the table at her future husband.  He reaches across and grabs her hand.  She wants so badly to believe what he says.  She wants nothing more than to be able to completely forgive him and put the past behind them.  She wants to believe that the affair was simply just a big mistake and it will never happen again.  She wants to be able to trust him again.
                  After the incident, when she had time to really calm down and think things over, she realized the stress that they both have been under.  She was stressed out about the restaurant and planning the wedding, while he was stressed about his job and the things going on in his life.  It was a lot for them both to deal with and she realizes it now.
                  It was hard for her to admit to herself, but Kyle was right, she had become distant.  She had pushed him away without realizing it.  It was never intentional, it just happened.  Instead of bringing him in close, she had pushed him as far as she could away from her. 
    She thought about the times that he had tried to come in close again and she had rejected him.  At the time, she hadn’t thought about the impact of her behavior.  It was hard for her to admit that she had played a part in the outcome of the situation.  She wanted to put all of the blame on Kyle and his selfish ways, but she had been selfish too.  She wasn’t thinking about his feelings when she was at the restaurant at all hours and he was waiting for her at home.  She hadn’t been thinking about his feelings and the times when he wanted to spend time together and she had brushed him off.
                  It’s took some time to come to grips that she may have pushed him into the arms of another woman, but the truth of the matter is that she played a role in their demise.  Kyle could have displayed stronger willpower, but she doesn’t blame him for being weak.  She’s tried to put herself in his shoes and look through his eyes.  What if the roles were reversed and she had been the one longing for attention and was constantly being rebuffed by Kyle?  She may herself have found comfort in the arms of another human being. 
                  She realizes that she may have been taking Kyle for granted.  She just always expected him to be there, so she lost touch with how she was behaving and treating him. The affair coming to light not only opened Kyle’s eyes, but it’s opened her eyes as well.  It’s made her realize that she’s not alone.  Kyle is standing beside her and he has feelings, wants, and needs that she needs to be mindful of.  It’s made her