he realize the
package he ordered came with the gift of a beautiful little
princess? One guaranteed to be wrapped in pink, with a bow on
top!
He caught my chin and turned me to face him.
“Lex, I know you’re pissed and probably never want to see me again,
but I can’t let you leave without you knowing that I’m in love with
you. I know what you’re thinking. I wasn’t including Layla in that
statement about kids. I just meant that if we have kids eventually,
I’d like to be further along in my career by then. Please forgive
me.”
Oh. My. God. I was staring at him,
but not actually seeing him. This was way too much to take in all
at once. He put a hand to the side of my face and gave me a light
kiss, “Lex, I love you.” I closed my eyes trying to force the tears
away.
“ What?” I managed to croak out. “I
love you, Lex. I’ll understand if you don’t say it back, but I’ll
wait because I know you care for me.”
He was right, I did care for him; more than
just cared, but did I love him? Every time I started to think I
did, I’d force myself to think of something else. If I do love him,
should I tell him? What would he do with the leftover pieces of my
heart that were all I had left to give a man? He hurt me once, but
compared to what Landyn did, this was nothing. I didn’t think Ryan
could hurt me as bad as Landyn did, but I wasn’t the best judge of
character.
Ryan was different that’s for sure. Not
better, not worse, just different.
Very different .
What about Layla? They’d never even met!
What if Ryan couldn’t handle helping raise a child who wasn’t his?
I was going to freak out!
“Lex, snap out of it,” Ryan said while
simultaneously snapping his fingers in front of my face to catch my
attention. “It’ll be ok. I’ll wait. I still need to prove that I
won’t hurt you, I know that. I still need to meet your little girl,
I know that too. Just please stop doubting me, Lex. I’m going to
take care of us.”
At that precise moment, I heard tires
screech in the background.
Not a minute later, banging started again at
the front door. Oh no, not this shit again !
“Open up asshole! If Lex is not out in five
seconds I’m breaking in a window! Open the door!” Then the
countdown started, “Five... four... three...” Well then, it would
seem Trish has arrived. Fantastic . Now how was I going to
get poor Ryan out of this predicament without bloodshed? I sighed
out loud.
Trish was now at “One point two-five!” so
Ryan spoke fast, “Don’t leave Lex, please. Tell Trish to come
inside. She can help us eat what the pizza boy nearly lost a hand
for delivering. I actually told the poor kid if he lifted his hand
one more time I was going to cut it off.” I snorted at that. “See,
you’re rubbing off on me,” he said sounding resigned to a lifetime
of living with my sarcasm.
“So it would seem.” I responded quietly
before adding, “And just so you know, I have an IUD. I can’t get
pregnant until I have it taken out.” I gave him a swift, wet kiss,
and then rushed to go put out the fire at the front door.
So, after yet another dramatic turning
point, for the past two years Ryan and I moved forward with our
lives together. When Layla and Ryan finally met, they really hit it
off. Granted, my little princess got along with anyone that met all
her demands, and she was so darn precious that people would move
planets to make her happy.
Layla was included in nearly all of our
dates. We went to the movies, the zoo and dinner together
regularly, but I never let Ryan take Layla anywhere without me. It
wasn’t that I didn’t trust Ryan. Layla was just the most important
thing in my life and if, God forbid , anything were to happen
to my princess, I wanted it to happen when I was there. They still
had a great relationship. I was happy.
We encountered no more major hiccups; minor
hiccups, yes, major hiccups, no. One was Ryan’s temper. I knew his
work was stressful and sometimes he