open gate. Maybe sheâd gone inside the house to find the broom and dustpan.
Rory cleaned up a bit more and then decided to check on Vanessa. He strolled through the open wrought iron gate and searched the big backyard. Lots of vintage patio furniture and nice palm trees and old oaks, but no Vanessa.
Turning toward the big shed sheâd talked about, Rory went to the open French doors. âHey, Vanessa, you in here?â
He found her standing at a table, her hand on an open book. A photo album from what he could tell.
When he moved toward her, she whirled, her gaze locking with his. âIâm sorry. I...I canât find the dustpan.â
Rory walked over to where she stood. âDo you want me to leave?â
She nodded and then she shook her head no. âI...I donât want you to leave but...I canât... Iâm not ready for this.â
âNot ready for me and my poor attempts to comfort you? Or not ready to clean out this house?â
âNot ready for...accepting that my mother is gone,â she said. Then she sniffed and wiped at her eyes. âIâll clean up the mess out front later. You...you donât have to hang around.â
Rory wasnât going to leave her like this. âNonsense. You go in the house and have a good cry or make yourself a cup of tea or eat ice cream. I see the broom over there, and I can use the lid off this old box as a dustpan. Iâll clean up the broken things out front.â
She gave him a confused stare, her eyes misty with a raw-edged pain. âYou donât have to clean up my mess.â
Rory wondered how many times sheâd said that to other people. âI donât mind.â
She nodded, grabbed the photo album and pushed past him for the door. But she turned once she was outside. âThank you, Rory.â
He nodded and smiled at her. âHey, listen. Grief is a sneaky thing. One minute youâre doing fine and the next, you want to punch something. Or...break dishes.â
She smiled through her tears. âI guess Iâve done that already today.â
She turned and ran toward the house, her flip-flops hitting against the steps up to the back porch. He watched her until he heard the door slam.
Rory tore off the box top and took it and the broom back up to the sidewalk and began to clear away the debris. But in his heart, he wanted to go inside that house and help clear up the debris of Vanessaâs broken heart. Because he didnât have enough prayers to give her the kind of comfort she craved and needed.
And yet, he knew the comfort of Godâs love.
So he prayed anyway, until he had the yard clean again.
Heâd have to keep working on the woman sitting inside, crying over an old photo album. And heâd have to do it in a gentle way that would help her to heal.
* * *
Vanessa wished she hadnât fallen apart in front of the preacher. Now heâd really want to talk to her. She only wanted to sit here and stare into space. But she had so much to take care of before she could go back to New Orleans.
Her fingers touched on an old photograph of her mother with Vanessa on a beach blanket, forcing her to remember the good times. Theyâd been few and far between, but she had brief flashes of laughter and sunshine and a warm feeling.
A feeling of being loved. Had she forgotten the good and focused too much on the bad? The pictures in this album only showed smiling faces and what looked like good times.
Why were there never any pictures of the bad times? Never any proof of how she remembered things? No, those things had been hidden away, swept underneath the heavy carpet in a facade that was hard to pull away.
A soft knock at the back door brought her head up. Vanessa wiped at her eyes and shut the old photo album. Then she rushed to the door and opened it to find Rory standing there with two ice cream cones.
âThe truck came by,â he said, smiling. âI like chocolate