dials were here, the switches. I had watched Dad do it so many times that I knew I could turn it all on, line up the numbers. I had talked to people far away before, heard their tiny voices say hello in my ears.
I felt it then, a change in the house. I was nervous, I couldnât hear, and I put the headset back and stood up, and waited.
âVivian!â Audra shouted. âAre you home? Where are you?â
âHere,â I said, already upstairs, halfway into the kitchen.
She was all the way on the second floor, waiting for me at the top of the stairs.
âWere you in my room?â she said.
I didnât say anything.
âI know someone was,â she said. âI put a piece of spiderweb on my door, across the top, and itâs broken. So I know someone was in there. Momâs home?â
I looked across the hall; the door to our parentsâ room was closed.
âIt was me,â I said. âI pushed it open because I missed you.â
âOh,â she said. âThatâs good. That it was you, I mean. Not Mom and Dad again. Theyâre always saying they respect my privacy, but theyâre into everything, all the time. Here, come in, talk to me while I get ready.â
I climbed the stairs and walked by close to her, close enough to smell her sweat, her hair. I sat on her bed.
âGirls?â Mom said, coming down the hallway.
Audra closed the door so we couldnât hear the rest of what she was saying. I could feel Mom, standing there for a moment, then heard her turn and walk back down the hall.
âWhat are you getting ready for?â I said.
She pulled down the ragged tights she was wearing, kicked them into the closet, and started pulling on her camouflage pants.
âYouâre not wearing underwear?â I said.
She opened a drawer of her dresser and took something out, held it up. It was white, thin ropes wrapped tightly around themselves.
âIâm going to sleep in the trees,â she said. âHigh up in the branches, in Mount Tabor Park.â
âWhat?â I said.
âItâs a hammock,â she said. âNo one will know where I am.â
âCan I come?â I said.
âNot this time.â Audra was opening and closing drawers, looking up to check on me. âYou know,â she said, âyou can come in here anytime, look at anything you want.â
âAre you running away?â I said.
Audra laughed. âThat sounds so stupid, if you say it like that, like a little kid whoâs rebelling.â
âAre you?â
âRebelling?â
âNo,â I said. âRunning away.â
âIâm going somewhere,â she said. âThatâs different.â
âWhere?â I said.
Audra didnât say anything at first. She just looked around at the walls of her room like she hated them.
âPeople arenât supposed to live in cities,â she said. âItâs so claustrophobic. And we live in a suburb, which is even worseâevery person in our neighborhood is exactly the same.â
âNot exactly,â I said.
âVivian,â she said. âYou know what I mean.â
The back of Audraâs hair was clumping together, notquite like dreadlocks, and the bones in her face seemed sharper. She was starting to look kind of like another person, a woman, not like a girl anymore.
âWhose hands are those?â I said.
âWhere?â
âOn the wall. The bigger ones.â
âA friend,â she said, and didnât say anything more, turning away, filling up her pockets with things I couldnât see.
âDid he come back?â I said. âThe one who disappeared?â
âYes,â she said. âHe came back for me.â
âWhereâs he from?â I said.
âNot the city,â she said. âA long ways from here. Thatâs where weâre going.â
âWhen?â I said. âJust you and