one, absolutely no one but Roger had ever been so very kind and generous to me.
âYou want me to change my mind about the offer you made me to live in Paris, donât you?â
âI want you to be comfortable, Kita. I donât see you being the type who changes her mind once itâs made up.â
âI wonât, you know.â
He seemed concerned. âYou canât be serious about The Black Moon . I know itâs docked somewhere near here. There are stories about this Gareth captain. He was once in the English Navy. They drummed him out for cruelty.â
âHeâs a privateer. And heâs not said to be a slave smuggler.â I was going to kill Roger for telling him.
âHeâs said to be a brute. Heâs a pirate.â
I shrugged. âI can look after myself. If any man tries anything with me, he dies.â
He touched his injured brow. âI believe that. But youâre too pretty, theyâll know.â
I blushed. âI can do it.â
âIâll be worrying about you.â
âYou have no cause to worry about me. Youâll have a wife to worry over soon.â
âYes, thatâs true. I wanted to ask you something else. Do you think thereâs any possibility that you may have conceived that night? I didnât take the precautions Iâd meant to.â
I blushed. âNo. Iâm sure.â
âKita, Mon amour , it can happen the first time. I want you to know that Iâllââ
âIâm sure,â I interrupted him. âMy monthly flow is on me now.â I didnât want him calling me his love. I didnât want that. Not ever.
He seemed relieved. Perhaps he was. I was not certain, it was hard to read his gaze. I suspected he was practiced at hiding his feelings, as are most military men.
âI have something else to give you.â
âI donât want anything else.â
âAh, but you have to take it. Itâs of little use to me now.â
He removed his scabbard and the fine sword within, and handed it to me.
âNo! I will not take your sword! Never.â
âI canât use it now.â He gave me a rueful smile. âYou know what the legend says, donât you? We, Navy men, are very superstitious.â
I glared at him. âWhat legend?â
âIf a manâ¦â He grinned and looked at my bound breasts. âIf a man has taken your sword and used it against you and draws blood, it will never be trusted again. I cannot use it. Iâd risk death in battle.â
âThatâs not true.â
âIt is. I would never lie to you.â
âThatâs silly.â
âI shall just leave it in the trash heap, then. It was a gift from my grandfather.â
âYou canât.â
âI will.â
I looked at the sword, glistening like gold in the sun. It was a fine weapon, beautiful. There were letters carved into the hilt. AED. âWhat do they stand for?â
âArmand Etienne Dupuis.â
I sighed. âIâll take it, then. Iâm sorry I took your luck. One day Iâll return it to you and you can give it to your son.â
âMaybe Iâll have a daughter.â
âMaybe sheâll need a sword.â I could feel my throat thickening. âIf youâll accept something from me, Iâll take it and Iâll look after it just as you would have.â
He nodded.
I pulled the medallion from out of my shirt and over my head, and laid it in his warm palm. âThis was my fatherâs. Now it is yours, Armand Etienne Dupuis.â
He smiled. âIâll wear it with pride, Kita. One day Iâll return it to you.â
I nodded. My chin was trembling. I was going to cry. How I hated this. I didnât want to part with him, but he was not mine to keep. He would never be mine, not the way that I wanted him. I would never share him.
I took the sword, and wearing the boots which felt as light