would have more credibility with my coaches. Maybe now theyâd listen when I said I should be playing quarterbackâthat I could be a quarterback. I could imagine the shock on Coach Hubbardâs face at the thought of me introducing him to the Cowboysâ coaching staff and maybe a few of the star players.
âWhat are you thinking about, Ry?â my mom asked, breaking the spell.
âJust . . . can you believe this?â I had this vision of myself standing in front of the entire Dallas Cowboysâ offensive line. Maybe Iâd strike a jaunty pose, with one foot on the ball, looking up at them, expectant, with my arms folded and them staring down, waiting for orders.
âI guess I can,â she said, with a tone in her voice.
âDonât sound so happy about it.â I couldnât help being annoyed that she trampled the nice image in my brain.
âIâm not happy about it, Ryan. Youâre twelve years old. I told you years ago, my whole focus has been about you having a normal childhood and growing up into a good person.â
âIâm not good?â
âOf course you are,â she said. âIâd like to keep it that way is all.â
âHow can this make me bad?â I tried not to sound too angry.
âOkay,â she said. âTell me. Whose faces have you already imagined the look on when they hear you own the Dallas Cowboys? Jackson? Izzy? No, not your friends. You thought of your enemies, didnât you? Bryan Markham and Jason Simpkin. Or maybe their fathers, the coaches in elementary school who didnât let you off the bench until the fourth quarter? Coach Hubbard. The one you say acts like youâre not there?â
âWhatâs that got to do with anything?â I asked.
âRyan, donât you see? You canât wait to hold it over those people, the ones you donât like. Thatâs not a good thing. Itâs just negative energy.â
âCanât you just be happy for me? My gosh, Mom, this is a dream come true. I love the Cowboys. I love football. You know that!â
âItâs a lot easier to love the Cowboys than to own them, Ryan. I know it sounds fun, but itâs a business and your . . . father had no right to hand you a billion-dollar business like itâs a ten-speed bike.â My mother seemed to be growing angrierby the minute, the shock of it having worn off. She slapped the steering wheel. âIn fact, I donât think Iâm going to allow it, Ryan.â
âWhat? No!â I felt instantly sick. âYou canât just not allow it. He left it to me. You canât undo that. Andâand Iâve got a trustee.â
âOh, sure. Dietrich, his old crony. Thatâs just great. Guidance from above. Not. Dietrich is a barracuda.â
âYou mean, he wonât really let me control the team?â I was confused.
âNo, I mean he will. â She was growling more than talking now. âHe doesnât care about a young boy growing up to be ânormal,â and he and your father were thick as thieves. Your fatherâs company used Dietrich Die Molding to help make all those high-tech medical devices. They got rich together.â
I didnât say anything. She wanted me to be a ânormalâ boy? What was that? Who cared about a normal boy, let alone Minna Zinnaâthatâs what some of the kids called meâthe half-pint shrimp?
I almost laughed out loud.
But theyâd definitely care now, especially when they saw the headline of the sports page in the Dallas Morning Star the very next day .
13
I have to say Jackson disappointed me when I got to school the next day.
Jackson Shockey was my best friend. Heâd appeared in Highland during the summer, and had shown up unannounced on the first day of football practice for the seventh-grade team at Ben Sauer Middle School. I didnât see a single kid besides Jackson who wasnât