canât stop playing music.
âYeah!â I yell.
She walks to my doorway and whispers, âWhitneyâs here.â She looks giddy, like some celebrity is right behind her, but sheâs trying to play it cool.
âOh,â I say. âOkay.â
âI went over to see if Melanie was home, and Whitney was there. She wanted to say hi.â
âOkay,â I say, shooing her away, knowing sheâs covering for whatever sheâs doneâprobably told Whitney I was dying to say hello and that I have no friends. My mom moves away to make room for Whitney, giving me a supportive look like Iâm about to sing a song or jump hurdles or something.
âHey,â Whitney says, from the doorway. Sheâs barefoot, and her hair is wet, which tells me something about herâmost girls donât like to get their hair wet. They just cook poolside like rotisserie chickens, taking intermittent dips up to their chins if they need to cool off. Her legs are muscled and long, even though sheâs not very tall.
âHi,â I say.
Her two front teeth are notably big, but in this weird way that makes you want your front teeth to be notably big too. She has a dark mole perched on top of her right cheekbone that I keep focusing on, so with that and the teeth, it takes me a while to register her entire face, but when I do, I see cruelty. Itâs not that sheâs scowling or smirking or anything. She just has that teen-movie-girl face, the popular one who gets one-upped at the end by the less pretty girl with the big, big heart. Maybe thatâs not fair, though. Maybe sheâs not cruel at allâmaybe sheâs just pretty. Her eyes are large and a bit slanted, with thick lashes.
âMy mom told me you were here,â she says.
Yes, she clearly wanted to drop in and say hi. I want to tell her itâs okay to go.
âIâm going to finish up out there,â my mom says. âCan I get you guys a snack?â
Oh God. A snack. I imagine saying to Whitney, âCan I offer you some fruit your mom brought?â and serving it to her on one of her plates.
âNo,â I say.
âIâm good, thank you,â Whitney says.
âOkay, Iâll let you girls chat.â
Whitney smiles at my mom, I donât, and then weâre by ourselves. What are we supposed to chat about? She walks in, then takes slow steps around the room. I wonder if I should resume my task or follow her around like a realtor. She wears just a large T-shirt that has wet spots where her breasts are.
âGetting settled?â she asks, looking at the mess on the floor, my boxes and clothes.
âYeah,â I say. âUnpacking some things.â Obviously.
She walks toward the window that faces the sea and her house.
âIâve never been in here,â she says. I look at the backs of her thin and strong legs.
âReally?â That seems weird to me. Iâm someone who leaves no drawer unopened. I canât imagine not going into a house I owned.
âI mean, when it was finished, I peeked in,â she says, âbut I never looked at the bedrooms.â
I guess not. Why would she? It would be like checking out the maidâs quarters or the handymanâs tool shed.
She looks at my books, and I remain quiet, as if someoneâs looking at my art right in front of me. I wish I had some of mypictures upâones of my friends or of my mom and me in LA, dressed up for a premiere. She hops over a pile of my hats, then peeks into the bathroom. I hold myself back from saying anything, not because it would be something rude, but because it would be something nice. Apologetic, careful, false. Or it would just be plain lame, like âhowâs school?â
âYou should come swim or lay out sometime,â she says. She walks back to the window and sits down on the built-in bench with the beachy, blue cushion. âI have magazines. Iâm done with them.