was changing as he got more wound up. But instead of yelling, he dropped his voice almost to a hiss. Low. Spooky.
âHeâs so useless,â he spat, his fists clenching. âYou know something? When my mom gotâ¦sick, before she did it, you know what my dad did?â A vein throbbed near Kieranâs temple as he spoke. âHe worked more. Longer hours, always at the lab. Every night. He couldnât face her. Or me.â His voice shook. âWhen things got tough, he made my mom disappear.â
He looked out the window. It was like he was trying to get ahold of himself.
I waited.
âAnd after Mom died,â he continued, âhe tried to do the same thing to me. After she killed herself, I was pissed off at everyone. The fake smiles, the pretend friends. I mean, whatâs the point?â He shook his head. âI wasnât going to play along with it. My father thought he solved the problem when he found a therapist who would put me on a bunch of drugs.â
âSeriously?â
âCheck it out.â Kieran pulled out a desk drawer. He held up a half-empty pill bottle. âAntidepressants,â he said. Another bottle: âAnti-anxiety meds.â
I shuddered. Whoâd want to drug their own kid to keep them from grieving their momâs death?
âAnyway,â Kieran said, âwe finally moved when I got busted for starting a fire in one of the chem labs.â He shrugged. âMaybe I did it. Maybe not. Didnât matter. It was enough to convince my dad that a change of scene would make me forget my problems.â
âDid it?â I said. He shook his head.
âThatâs the problem,â he said. âMy dad wants to forget her. Forget me. Make us go away.â
Kieran seemed to pull himself together a little. Maybe he saw the stunned expression on my face. There was way more going on here than I thought.
âLook, uh,â I said, âthe idea of sneaking into the DMA site is awesome. But I canâtâI donât want to get into something between you and your dad.â
âItâs not like that,â said Kieran, shaking his head. âYou just help me figure out how to get in there, itâll be an awesome run. And as a bonus weâll make some money. Plus, Iâll be able to do something that really gets my dadâs attention, you know? No skin off your back.â
This was messed up. Part of me wanted to get up and leave right away, walk away from the whole complicated scene. I didnât want Kieranâs problems. But I felt bad for him. I knew he didnât have any friends at school to talk to. Despite his strangeness, I liked him. Especially now that I knew what heâd gone through.
And I wish I didnât care about the money, but I did. The chance to fix things with Asha was too big to pass up.
I swallowed my unease.
âMaybe thereâs something here,â I said. I pointed at a blocky map on the laptop screen. âThis is where they used to rig up the rocket engines for testing.â I flipped to an old black-and-white picture of huge concrete pillars and iron girders. A massive rocket nozzle was strapped to the top. Iâd read about something similar at an old NASA lab in California on the urban exploration websites.
âUnderneath those big platforms, they built tunnels and filled them with water,â I said. âThe water would help keep the noise of the rockets down. Kept things from catching on fire too.â I explained that the blast from the rockets would turn the water in the tunnels to steam. The tunnels vented the steam out, safely away from the testing area. I tapped the screen to show a point well away from the fence line of the DMA site.
âSee these marks on the map? I think this is where the old tunnels ended. Thatâs our way in.â
Chapter Eight
We decided that we needed to scout the entrance to the tunnels before going any further. Hopefully,