wildly.
McGillivray grinned wickedly over his shoulder. âGotcha,â he mouthed.
She wanted to kill him.
âA woman who isnât afraid of sharks shouldnât let a little spider or two bother her,â he said. âIâll fix us something to eat.â The door banged shut behind him.
There were no spiders. There were no snakes. She was alone. And suddenly every bit of the adrenaline that had been fueling her since Rolandâs astonishing announcement vanished.
Her breath came in quick thready gasps. Her heart beat in a crazy staccato rhythm. Her vision darkened, and the room seemed to spin.
âOh, help!â She groped for something to hang on to and grabbed the towel rackâright off the wall.
The door burst open.
âFor Godâs sake!â McGillivray kicked the towel rack aside and crouched beside her on the floor. âWhat the hell happened?â
âN-nothing. Iâ¦n-nothing.â She tried to get up, but found herself shoved down again and held fast.
âDid you faint?â
âOf course not!â But her brain was still spinning and her legs felt like mush. Even so, she squirmed against his hold.
âStay still,â McGillivray commanded and thrust her head unceremoniously between her knees. âTake deep breathsâand donât faint again!â
âI didnât faint! â she said again for all the good it did her.
As if it were a matter of choice, anyway, she thought grimly, sucking in oxygen, doing her best not to make a liar out of herself, while a firm hand pressed against the back of her neck.
âBreathe, damn it.â
âIâm tryingââ gulp, gulp ââto.â
âThen stop talking. Breathe deeper. Big breaths.â
God, he was bossy! âIâm all right,â she protested. âI justâ¦tripped.â
âYeah, right. Breathe.â
She did. And the blood thrummed in her ears and her heart slammed against the wall of her chest. But gradually her heart slowed, her vision returned. McGillivrayâs callused hand, though, held her head firmly down.
She shifted. âIâm all right now,â she insisted, and pushed back against his hand.
He eased the pressure a bit. âTake it easy.â He watched her warily as she straightened up, as if expecting her to go headfirst onto the floor again.
Determined not to, she took another deep breath and sat up straight. The quilt fell away from her shoulders.
McGillivrayâs breath hissed through his teeth. Reaching over, he jerked the quilt back up and wrapped it tightly around her again.
Surprised, Syd looked up at him.
He glared back at her. âWhat?â
âNothing. I justâ¦you seemâ¦â She was babbling, butshe couldnât help it. âI didnât thinkââ But it did make sense of things.
âYou didnât think what?â he demanded.
âThat you were gay.â
âWhat?â He jerked as if sheâd shot him. âWhat the hell do you mean, Iâm gay?â McGillivrayâs voice was a roar.
âWell, you keep covering me up!â Syd shouted back at him. âAs if the sight offends you! I know Iâm no raving beautyââ God knew Roland had been quite capable of resisting her ââbut Iâm passably attractive. At least, no one else has ever been at such pains not to have to look at me.â
He snorted and scrambled to his feet, as if putting as much distance between them as he could. âAnd that makes me gay?â
âI just thought⦠You said Lisa wasnât your girlfriend. You were veryâ¦adamant about it. And you said your sister thought she was trying to, um, save you from yourself.â
It all made sense as far as Syd could see. âI donât mind if you are,â she told him.
âIs that supposed to be comforting?â
âWell, Iââ
He straightened up, wincing a little as he did so,