stomach.
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Camille saw her motherâs hunched figure and sat down across from her, taking a deep breath:
âMorning, Mom.â
âArenât you going to kiss me?â
âMorning, Mom,â she said more slowly.
âHow are things?â
âWhy do you ask?â
Camille held on to the edge of the table to stop herself from getting up again right away.
âBecause thatâs what people usually say when they meet.â
âIâm not âpeople.â â
âWhat are you, then?â
âOh, please, donât start, okay?â
Camille turned her head and looked at the horrid décor of pseudo-Asian stucco and bas-reliefs. The tortoise-shell effect and âmother-of-pearlâ inlay were made of plastic, and the lacquer was yellow Formica.
âItâs nice here.â
âNo, itâs horrible. But I donât have the means to invite you to Tour dâArgent, so there. Anyway, even if I did, I wouldnât take you. The way you eat it would be money down the drain.â
Great atmosphere.
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Camilleâs mother began to giggle sarcastically:
âThough you could go there without me because you do have money. Itâs an ill wind that blows nobody anyââ
âStop right now,â threatened Camille, âor Iâll leave. If you need money, just tell me and Iâll lend you some.â
âThatâs right, I hear youâve got a job now, a good job, interesting to boot. Cleaning lady. Really hard to imagine for someone whoâs as messy as you are. You never fail to astonish me, you know that?â
âStop, Mom, stop right there. We canât go on like this. We cannot , donât you see? At least I canât. Change the subject, please. Change. The. Subject.â
âYou had a great job and you went and ruined everything.â
âA great job. Like hell . . . And I donât miss it at all, either. I wasnât happy there.â
âYou didnât have to stay there all your life. And anyway, what is âhappyâ supposed to mean? That the new âinâ word or something? Happy! Happy! If you think weâre here on earth to frolic around and pick daisies, youâre just plain naive, young lady.â
âNo, no, you can relax, thatâs not what I think at all. Iâve been in good hands so I know weâre here to have a hard time. You said so often enough.â
âAre you ready to order?â asked the waitress.
Camille could have kissed her.
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Her mother spread her pills on the table and counted them with one finger.
âArenât you sick of taking all that crap?â
âDonât talk about what you donât know. Iâd be long dead if it werenât for these pills.â
âWhat makes you say that? And why donât you take off those awful glasses? Thereâs no sun in here.â
âI feel better with them. This way I see the world the way it is.â
Camille decided to smile, and patted her motherâs hand. It was either that or go for her neck and strangle her.
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Her mother smiled, moaned a bit, talked about her loneliness, her back, the stupidity of her colleagues and the woes of co-ownership. She ate with gusto and frowned when her daughter ordered a beer.
âYou drink too much.â
âYes, youâre right! Câmon, cheers. For once youâre not saying something stupid.â
âYou never come to see me.â
âAnd now? What am I doing here, then?â
âAlways the last word, right? Just like your father.â
Camille froze.
âAh, you donât like it when I talk about him, do you,â she declared triumphantly.
âMom, please . . . Donât go there.â
âIâll go wherever I like. Arenât you going to finish your plate?â
âNo.â
Her mother shook her head disapprovingly.
âLook at you. Youâre a skeleton. If you think